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chapter three

emma's pov

i woke up early and drove back home to get ready with a shoot for a brand. i was passing by one of the nearby coffee shops when i spotted ellie. oh fuck this.

she's on the other side of the street and was going in my direction, so i entered the coffee shop to avoid her. i thought it was all okay until i see ellie entering the coffee shop too. fuck it!

i rush to the counter and order decaf while i fumble with my airpods. i put them on and pretended i was listening to something. when my name was called i grabbed my coffee real quick and turn to leave, and i see at the corner of my eyes ellie following me by sight.

like what the fuck should i do? do i turn my head? do i say hi? do i act oblivious? do i look like i'm busy?

i decide on ignoring her completely and head out to my shoot. fucking shit!

the shoot wraps up and they invite me for an after-shoot interview to be featured on their magazine. the whole thing took up my entire day. i vlogged, too, so i could still post some content on youtube. i realized i haven't finished my thrift haul so i move that back further. i figured i'd post this vlog for next week instead. 

on my ride home my mind wanders back to ellie. not a lot really know this but ellie was the first to know i was gay, and it was because i had a crush on her. i have known of my sexuality way back in 2016, but i only came out in 2017 because of ellie. ellie had come out way earlier than olivia and i did, and she was so confident with herself and i figured us being friends was just really because we all attracted each other's energy, even before we knew. way the go for gay people! 

i remember telling ellie i had a crush on her when i was sleeping over at her place, and i was kind of nervous of what she might say and it caught me off guard when she laughed at me and she said she gets that a lot with queer and closeted people and told me to try and wait it out because it was really just a platonic crush. we was right though, but i was out and honestly ellie made me feel welcome with how i felt. everyone made me feel welcome and i was happy that i got to be in such a loving support group.

ellie and olivia started dating in early 2018, and at first they kept it as a secret. olivia keeps teasing ellie that ellie was the first to make a move, something that she doesn't always do. they were the "thing" in our circle. like, i can't even explain the amount of love you could hold in the air when they're in the same room together. they just fit! they really really do. 

that morning, when i caught olivia on her phone in my bed, i thought she was trying to contact ellie. i saw that she was scrolling though, so i knew she was on instagram or something. honestly i wondered why olivia didn't try talking to ellie again in the morning. but then again, i didn't try to talk with ellie myself, and we're friends! and i passed by her on a coffee shop! 

i guess that's the thing with ellie. she's just really a genuine and confident person and you know she doesn't act out of unstable feelings. i get the feeling that ellie did mean it when she broke up. maybe olivia thought the same. 

what strikes me mildly offensive and odd is that ellie had the guts to post (let alone edit) a video of her and olivia, and post it on youtube. that really just blew my mind off for a second. that's completely out of line for someone like ellie. i wonder why she did it...

amanda's pov

i had a free day off so i spent the entire day with olivia. she asked if i had any video plans for my youtube and i said i didn't, because i knew she would pester me to go do it and let her be. she, however, sniffed i was lying and i finally told her i was planning on filming a promotional video for a make-up company, so olivia forced me to go back to my apartment to film it. of course i told her she'd be coming with me, and so we drove to my apartment and we filmed for a while.