The Mistress

LII

I stood up grumpily and hurry to put everything in order trying to listen in on their conversation but everytime I try to interrupt
Nana would yell at me and that made me feel like a child
Eventually she chased me out of the house and I joined sally by the veranda

"But why would she chase me out of an issue that actually concerns me... Infact it is about me"

I complained

"And You.. Why did you confirm to him that I am staying here "

"Me..... He knows that you live here, and how was I suppose to know that you didn't want to see him"

"By now you should have known my regular kind of friends from a total stranger "

"Am sorry I didn't get the memo... You should have told me sooner"

I heard them laugh from inside and that just made my blood boil

"and why is she laughing with him.. I mean what could he have possibly said that was funny "

Sally chuckled

"What's funny "

"You! You are acting like a child whose mom wouldn't let  her take her bicycle down the streets.... Relax am sure she knows what she's doing "

She's right
Have really been acting overly tensed and insensitive.
In a matter of time all this would be cleared.,
But do I really never want to see him again... I'm already torn in the middle
Life just keeps falling hard on me

After about half an hour
They walked out of the house
Chatting like they have known each other forever
It was ridiculous but cute
Felix charm just seem to affect everyone including sally..
Who stopped what she was doing to drool over him
I gave her a smack on the face to bring her back to sanity

"Oh martiiiiida... "My nana squashed
"You have such a wonderful friend here"

"Tell me about it"

"I have asked him to drop by anytime for coffee and cookies"

"I love your Nana's cookies... Thank you so much for having me Gloria "

"The pleasure is all mine "

She kissed his cheeks and head back inside

"Your grandmother is really lovely "

"Ohh "

"Can we talk for a minute... In my car"

I nodded swiftly

"Let's get this done with shall we"

We head to his car and hop in

"What's up "
I said once we had settled in

"You know am not going to back down "

"But You have to "

"I can't.... Not when I know that you would be... Might be carrying
my child"

Yes of course your child
That's all that matters to you

"Its not... Yours "
My lumps are harder to swallow and it felt as if my lungs were fried
I don't know if it was because we we're confined in his car or the weather but I feel really stuffy

"Say it until you have convinced yourself. You are not a very good liar Matilda ... And I also know that Julian is your best friend's brother "

"Did my Nana tell you that "

"No she didn't   .  You did a long while ago "

How did he even remember that

"What if it ....  not the same Julian "

"Oh it not.... He even .. Forgot to give u a ring"

Yeah whatever

"But I know I have no say in your relationship life. You can be with whomever you want.. "

"of course I can" I blurted out

As if it was that easy
I can't even go anywhere looking like this
But maybe I don't even want to try
Relationship is definitely not in my favor
Or maybe I just want you
Have you ever thought of that

"And am not going to stop you. You deserve all the happiness in the world..And am not going to get in the way of that,  But pls.... Don't punish me for my mistakes by taking away this opportunity from me..... Pls Matilda. Pls"

He does sound sincere
I know how much he wanted to be a father
Would it be unfair of me to not let him be a part of his child's life