The Mistress

LI

Nana snubbed me for the next couple of weeks... I really don't want to be seen as an heartless bitch or a child killer but I couldn't imagine what someone like me will do with a child

It is out of my scope of thought
Beyond my imaginations

Becca and I met for lunch one afternoon, she would always drop by every now and then to check in on me even though I was miles away

We placed our orders and for some reason I became indecisive and I just wanted to have a bit of everything

"Okay..... Lion, keep your weight in check... Just because you don't add any doesn't mean you can eat everything "

"Am pregnant ... " I blurted out
It was about time I shared it with my best friend. I wasn't showing yet and I still haven't been able to decide if I want to keep the baby or not"

"What "

I raised a brow and she freaked out like totally

"You.. Re... You are pregnant.... Wow.... I mean that's great news..... You are pregnant...... That's fantastic... Congratulations girl.... You finally hit the rocking bowl "
I look down at the dishes I was about to dive into

"What's with that look.... Don't tell me you are not escalated by this wonderful news... You are going to a mother and am going to be a godmother.... This is unbelievable "

"It is" I muttered in between my chews

"Why arent you excited about this "

"I am... " I fake a smile

"You don't want the baby "

"No.. Its not like I don't want the baby.. Am just not sure... I mean this would complicate everything.... I mean now I have to think of feeding and nursing an infant... "

"And what's wrong with that.... Look I know we keep making jokes about you never having a child and being the switch but there's more to life than mere fantasy... I know you didn't plan for it and especially now that it would be reminding you of that asshole.. You just want to verge your anger at the poor thing but have you just thought about it and wonder if this is the next big thing you need it get you back on track"

"Oh this is real big "

"I know... But you just have to take it one day at a time gradually you will feel it.. And if you don't just carry that child for nine months and I will gladly adopt her "

We burst into laughter

They talk me into it
And sometimes I really wished I didn't listen to them other times I'm grateful I did

I was gradually growing from a potbelle to an hippotamus
It literally controlled my whole life
I spend the whole day sleeping and nights watching horror movies
I eat like everything but I crave mostly for oreos and ice cream...

I got tired of Nana's cookies and I think she's actually glad I did... I made her bake endlessly

I cant take my usual sleeping position and I use the toilet frequently.. I was growing fast and big and it scared me shitless that I would never get back in shape.. And I can't even exercise regularly to save my own life

But amidst the struggle it was fun to not do any house chore and just watch people symphatize on your behalf

Mrs Taylor would bake me her special chocolate cake every Tuesday and Jordan let me watch bull fight for free
Everyone loves a pregnant woman

It was another regular evening..
sally went out on a date so there was no one to get me oreos from the store and I cant watch my movies without them

So instead of sulking I decided to go there myself, it was really cold so I wore an extra coat and let my hair loose

The store was just around the corner so I strolled there
Litzy's father owned the store and we went to the highschool together and she was all smittened by my fat belle
She let me take what I want for free
I decided to shop for a few things too, I got a pair of socks and beanie for the baby.. Nana and becca have been shopping for the baby so I decided to get something too

I was smiling from cheeks to cheeks as I was walking out of the store and unknowingly bumped into the person walking in

My shopping bag went all over and my stuff laying around
He was nice enough to help me pick them but it was my fault though. I wasn't looking

Just when I was trying to pick up my candy, we almost bump again and this time our eyes met

I froze
The only thing beating hard was my fast thudding chest
What was he doing here
I never thought I'd see me again
I have somehow erased the possibility in my head

"Matilda... "
He said like he was confirming if it was me.. Do I look that different

"No.... " I answered quickly "I don't know who Matilda is"
I grabbed my stuff from him and try to control my loud pounding heart

"I know it.. You... Even though you look really different "

Thanks to you I look like a fuckin house

"I have looked everywhere for you "
He looked for me.... Why

"Look I think you have got the wrong person mister"

I start to walk away but he followed me

"Pls hold on... Can we just talk for a moment "
Gimme space i can't even breath

"Have gat nothing to say to you"

"I know I wronged you.... And I am so terribly sorry"

"Oh yeah " I kept moving fast

"Yes"

"Fuck You "

"Pls Matilda let's just go somewhere and talk... I have so much to tell you... It been so long, I really missed you "

I stopped on my tracks and turn towards him

"If You are even in the slightest bit sorry... You will understand why you should keep your distance and stay away from me"

"It not that simple "

"I really don't care"
I turn to leave

"Is that child mine"

Of course it yours... You moron
You knocked me out and abandoned me, I should gauge out your eyes and show it to the baby

"No... It not"

"I don't think so "

"I don't care what you think... This child belongs to my fiancee"

"You have a fiancee... What's his name"

I don't even know what am saying anymore

"What do you care"

"It just a name Matilda.. It can't be that hard to remember "

"His name is Julian .. Happy"

"Nah... I don't buy that... But one thing I can assure you is that if this child is mine. You are going to be seeing a lot of me around.... Send my regards to your fiancee "

He turned and walk away
Just like that