Sulat sa Pebrero

The land of countless loops

Undo it once again for it shall never repeat but first,

Loosen the grips of death, if you may

Oh how naive should have we been

Name the point of edge, she said

Go and never return, and walked away.

"What the fuck, Lana?", napatayo ako aa sobrang gulat.

"Tangina.", napabulong ako sa sarili ko. Sino ba naman hindi mabibigla sa ginawa nitong kaibigan ko. Nilagyan ba naman ako ng mga dahon dahon sa ulo.

"Para kang tanga.", at ayun, she kept on laughing her ass off as if nakakatawa talaga. Inirapan ko lang sya and tiningnan na nakatingin yung mga ibang tao. Okay, nakakahiya na talaga. "Ugh bahala ka nga dyan Lana, I have class pa. Wala ka pa ba?", I asked her.

She signaled her head with no, hmm. I guess she got her own time then. Kawawa naman to, baka wala nanaman magawa sa buhay. Tiningnan ko schedule ko and suprise, it was only Theology as my next subject.

"Samahan na nga kita. San mo gusto kumain?",

I looked at her and tinuro nya yung favorite spot namin. Of course, favorite nya yung canteen and corndogs e.

"Nako Lana, hilig mo sa hatdog.", tumawa na lang kaming dalawa.

I met Lana when we were in 7th grade. She was one of the closest buddy i've had in high school. She's basically my sister, we tell secrets with one another, our thoughts and so much more.

Never pa nagka-boyfriend si Lana and I actually do not know why. She has a lot of suitors pero she turns them down. Kahit ilang taon na kami magkasama, it remains a mystery for me.

As we ate our corndogs, we both devoured the savory flavor of the food and laughed with jokes that are so dumb. It's actually weird how people tend to look at you when both women laugh so hard as if there's no tomorrow. Oh well, who cares.

I love Lana. I really do. She's one of the special people that will always remain in my heart. Although, sobrang childish nito talaga minsan, parang isip grade 7 pa din. I remember nga nung mga June, 9th grade I guess, fuck di ko maala pero basta! naghahanda for the class shoot, she poured powder sa buhok ko. My God, sobrang galit ko sakanya.

She said sorry right after and fixed my hair. Well ayun. I might be harsh on her sometimes pero love ko yun. OG ko nga yun, sabi nila. Pero all these years. People didn't really think that we have real friendship. Although, in the middle of February or something of our 10th grade. Wala akong maalala?

I know it's weird pero halos 1 month kong di nakita si Lana. Sabi nya lang sakin kabalik na nag ka emergency lang daw sya sa probinsya. I forgave her pero her comeback made it strange. Specifically the people I guess, including my family and Laurence. They always get weirded out or titingnan nila ako kapag kasama ko si Lana. They would even immediately change the subject or get stoned. Kaya ayun, parang di Lana na lang din yung kusang umaalis. I feel bad pero she understands naman. Pero yeah. At first, I wasn't really that comfortable. But now? Sanayan na lang.

"Babe!"

Napatingin ako sa likod ko and nakita ko si Laurence. "Shit.", inubos ko ng mabilisan yung corndog and tumayo. Malayo pa lang, kita ko na sakanya yung pagka worry. Tiningnan ko kung nakaalis na si Lana, good thing nakaalis na nga.

"Hi babe! Sorry kumain na kami ni Lana.", tumakbo ako at hinug siya.

"Uhm haha. Di mo ko ininvite dyan ah."