I'm not good enough (Jimin-centric

•~Chapter 21~•

Jimin looked over a bridge. It looked so tempting to jump right now.

'Do it'

Jimin looked around and saw fog around him, unable to see anything.

'Do it!'

Jimin gulped as he tried looking at who was saying it.

"W-Who's there?" He said trying to sound brave but it ended up giving a weak response.

Suga and the rest of the members walked out of the fog, smirking. "Do it. Jump. Kill yourself." He said.

"Nobody would care about a fat pig like you." Namjoon glared at him.

"Shut up. I know people care about me. You can't convince me. You broke me but I had people there! People who cared for me! Why would I care about the people that pushed me down when there were good people that wanted me around?!" Jimin yelled at them.

"Growing confidence I see. Tsk tsk tsk to actually believe you're wanted. You'll never recover." J-hope spoke.

"I'm getting better." Jimin glared at them.

"And I don't need you guys fucking it up like before." He added.

"Damn you really are blind. Remember this?" Jungkook said as he held out Jimin's razorblade.

"I-" Jimin's eyes grew wide as he saw it. Memories came flooding by making his will to live lower. All those times he's been pushed and shoved. All those times he's been tortured.

The members all laughed. "Here. Do it." Namjoon said as he kicked the small object over to Jimin.

Jimin stayed quiet as he picked it up, looking at it.

His eyes watered as memories came flooding by. But he wouldn't dare cry. He knew he could recover. He knew he was getting better.

He knew he was Ms. Ross by his side. And as soon as he got out he was going to go see her.

"No." Jimin said.

"What do you mean no?" They all said as their voice darkened.

"I SAID NO!"

Jimin gasped as he woke up in the hospital bed. It was just a dream. It was just a dream.

Jimin wiped the sweat off his forehead and tried to even his breathing.

He cracked a smile. He was getting better. He knew he was to live. And he was going to recover, needing help to do so.

"Jimin? You have a visitor." The nurse said as she walked in, holding the door for the visitor.

"Hey Jimin."

Jimin couldn't believe his eyes. He started tearing up.

"I- how did you find me." He said, wiping his tears.

Ms. Ross stood there, holding 'hope you get better soon' balloons and a teddy bear.

She looked like she tried holding back tears. She hated seeing him in this state. She wanted to see the boy smile.

"I- just give me a hug." She said as she walked over to him and flung her arms around him.

Jimin cried in her arms. "I missed you. I wanted to tell you but-"

"Its okay Jimin. I see that you're getting better and I'll be here to guide you. You're so important to me and I-I don't I can lose you." She said.

Jimin nodded while tears were still in his eyes. "That sounds good. Thank you for everything." He said, wiping his tears.

"I've got to go but I'll visit you tomorrow. Bye Jimin. Recover please. For me and for yourself." She said as she gave him one final hug.

After she left Jimin smiled to himself. He truly did have someone that cared.

Jimin heard the door open and figured it was Ms. Ross but his smile faded away when he saw them.

Jimin sighed "please just don't ruin my day."

"Jimin I just want to say-" Jungkook was cut off by Jimin.

"What? You wanted to say sorry for bullying me? Putting my head down the toilet? Making me feel worthless about myself?" Jimin wiped a tear and sniffled.

"A sorry doesn't actually do anything. A simple sorry isn't going to fix me. And look I appreciate you trying to fix it but you can't take any of that back." Jimin said in a calm voice.

"Jimin we're such idiots and we regret it." Namjoon said.

"No i-" Jimin got cut off by Suga finally speaking up.

"Please Jimin. At least let us help you. We're here and...." Suga stopped mid sentence and wiped his tears.

"We'll help you. You can't help yourself and the least we can do it try. Try to help you in your recovery. You need us right now and we're here so don't try to push us away." He pleaded.

Jimin stayed quiet for what seemed like minutes. "Okay."

"A-And you're not joking? Like last time?" Jungkook asked, raising his head to show his puffy eyes.

Jimin sighed "You guys did so wrong and the fact that I'm still letting you guys help is a bad idea. But you're right. I do need help if I want to recover."

"Thank you! You won't regret this I swear!" Suga said, holding Jimin's hand.

Jimin just raised an eyebrow and pulled his hand away.

"Sorry" Suga said with a tint of blush on his cheeks.

Jimin sighed. "You guys start tomorrow but for now can you let me be? I just need to rest."

The members immediately got up and started bowing as they exited through the door.

"BYE CHIM- I MEAN JIMIN." Taehyung said before waving furiously as him.

Jimin shook his head, a small curve on his lips.