I'm not good enough (Jimin-centric

•~Chapter 17~•

A big splash was heard as Jimin fell onto the water.

Namjoon eyes widened as he just saw it all happen. He felt everything stop for a second.

He didn't even realize that tears were falling from his cheeks.

He suddenly felt adrenaline running through his veins as he rushed towards the bridge.

He was so eager to save the boy that they caused pain to for months. Tormenting the boy for no reason.

Namjoon rushed towards the bridge as he jumped straight into the water. Pain hit his body as the fall was high.

He didn't worry about that though. His main priority right now was saving Jimin.

He held his breath as he swam deeper into the water. His eyes-widened as he saw Jimin unconscious and falling deeper.

Namjoon quickly swam towards him and grabbed him. He managed to pull him onto the shore.

There he saw the members looking Panicked and worried.

"I-Is he okay?" Taehyung asked.

"Why would he pull that stupid stunt?" Suga muttered in a low voice. He wiped his tears quickly, not wanting anyone to see them.

"Quickly who knows CPR?" Namjoon said.

J-hope raised his hand and started walking towards Jimin. He let out a shaky sigh as he crouched and started pumping Jimin's chest.

"Please please please Jimin. Wake up. Please. I'm sorry." J-hope muttered as he kept pumping his chest.

J-hope stop and stared at Jimin's blue lips. He took a deep breath and connected their lips, blowing air into his mouth.

The members gasped and stared wide-eyed at the scene.

J-hope gave one final breath before Jimin quickly sat up, coughing up water.

He looked around him and saw all of the members of BTS surrounding him.

"W-What happened?" Jimin said in a hoarse voice.

"We need to get you to a hospital. Now." Jungkook muttered.

Then it all hit Jimin. He tried to kill himself. He almost did it but he was saved.

"...fuck you guys." Jimin muttered as he pulled his weak body off the ground. He felt pain all over his body.

"We saved your life so you better thank us." Suga growled.

"You're the ones that caused me to end it. I'm going home." Jimin said as he started limping away. His body couldn't handle anymore and he collapsed on the floor.

"Jimin. We're sorry. But right now we have to get you to a hospital." Jin said in a caring voice.

"I don't want to." Jimin muttered softly.

"Jungkook. Pick him up." Namjoon ordered.

Jungkook nodded and started walking towards Jimin. Jimin's eyes widened. He didn't like being carried. His weight was one of his insecurities.

"N-No im good i-" Jimin got interrupted by Jungkook picking him up and carrying him bridal style.

Jimin gave up trying to fight it. "Sorry I'm heavy."

"You're actually very light. Are you even eating-" Jungkook stopped as he remembered how they all shamed him for eating.

They all stayed quiet the way to the hospital. Jimin felt his blood boil as memories came crashing through.

They finally made it and had Jimin go to the emergency room.

The members worried as they waited outside of the room. They all sighed and took deep breaths.

"Okay so you guys can go in. He seems upset so don't do anything that will anger him." The nurse said to them.

They all took deep breaths as they entered the room. They saw Jimin laying in his bed. He looked so pale and small. They all guessed at the sight of him.

"Hi Jimin. Are you doing better?" Namjoon asked in a soft voice.

Then they saw it. He had self harming scars all over his arms. He looked like he was in a bad condition.

"Why the fuck would you do that?!" Namjoon shouted as he grabbed Jimin's small wrists.

Jimin felt tears falling from his face. "Shut up." He muttered. He knew that if they kept on pressing him about it then he was going to burst in tears.

"Shut up?! Are you stupid? You could've killed yourself!" Suga shouted.

"AND I WISH I FUCKING DID. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU GUYS. GET THE FUCK OUT." Jimin yelled, tears falling from his cheeks.

"You guys did this to me. You're the fucking reason that I did this. I hate myself. I'm constantly reminded how fat and ugly I am. You guys hit me. You beat me up and tell me how worthless I am. You should've let me died. Then I wouldn't have to fucking suffer. I hate you all. Get out." Jimin lashed out.

The members were all speechless. "I- but we saved you-" Jungkook was cut off by Jimin.

"Don't think that just because you saved me that you're forgiven. And a fucking sorry isn't going to do shit. Get the fuck out!" Jimin yelled.

The nurses heard all the commotion and rushed in. "Time to go. Now." They said in a cold voice. They glared at the boys for upsetting Jimin.

Suga scoffed and glared at Jimin one last time before leaving.

The members just quietly followed him. They fucked up.