Lost Love

Seeing Him Again

MADELINE POV

RECAP............
I entered the elevator and headed up to my apartment. As I arrived I realized there were only two apartments on this floor. They were the largest spaces in the whole apartment complex.

I hadn't seen my neighbor all day. Although I didn't mind since I wasn't one to get too friendly with my neighbors.

As I walked through the hallway to my apartment I noticed the door begin to open from my neighbor's door. Maybe this would be a good time for me to introduce myself to the individual living in that space.

Although as soon as I realized who the person was that had just gotten out, I froze. My heart was beating so fast that I felt it would come out of my chest any minute now. My hands began to tremble and my legs felt weak. I couldn't understand why this was happening to me.

END OF RECAP.......

Grayson stood before me with an equally shocked look on his face. He wore a well fitted suit and his hair was properly styled. His body was very fit and for some reason it felt as if he had grown taller. His features had matured a bit in a sexy way and he no longer looked like the clueless teenager from before. He looked like a real man now, not the young boy I once knew. He was even more handsome than I remembered him to be.

Although in that moment I realized nothing had changed. It had been 5 years since I had last seen Grayson and I still felt like that naive young girl who was blinded by love for this man.

Sudden flashes of my confrontation with Grayson 5 years ago came rushing to my head. The terrible pain I felt then hit me even stronger now. I couldn't comprehend why.

Why did all of this still hurt me? I thought I had gotten over it all but I guess I hadn't.

"Madeline" He said in a very low voice it sounded almost like a whisper.

I should have expected I would see him in New York sooner or later. I had reenacted this confrontation a million times in my head while I lived in England. I just never expected it to happen on my first day back to New York. It was like destiny was putting him in my path once again.

I looked away as I passed him. I grabbed my keys as I desperately tried to open the door to my apartment. Maybe if I pretended like I didn't know him then it would be ok. He couldn't have recognized me. I knew my appearance had also changed.

I felt someone touch my shoulder and I knew it was Grayson. I could feel his warmth. He turned me around to face him and he immediately pulled me against him as he pressed his aching lips against mine.

His strong arms were wrapped tightly on my waist as he pressed himself against me. I thought it would feel foreign being in his arms again but it felt just right.

He kissed me with desperation and longing. I planned to push him away but my body wouldn't let me. It wanted him. My arms wrapped around his neck as I felt myself move closer to him.

I kissed him back with that same yearning. Except I couldn't help but feel guilty for wanting him after all that had happened between us. He had hurt me so much and now I stood here passionately kissing him. What a hypocrite I was.

He shifted to my neck leaving warm gentle kisses.

"God I've missed you Madeline." He whispered.

He began to kiss and suck on the spot. Then he did the same to the other side. His hands roamed around my frame as he touched my body. His hands moved to my waist and went lower to my thighs and upward to my ass as he gave it a squeeze.

I suddenly moaned and it was this that snapped some sense in me.

I immediately pushed him away. My body was heated up and for some reason it felt as if I had just run a marathon. I felt agitated as I tried to calm myself down.

"I can't do this right now." I said as I turned to the door. I grabbed my keys from the floor and I quickly tried to get inside my apartment. As I tried opening the door I noticed Grayson slammed his hand against the door, trapping me. His large body stood behind me, keeping me in that spot.

"Please Madeline, don't do this to me again." I could hear the pain in his voice.

"I don't want to talk to you." I said in a cold voice. It was hard to admit it but it hurt me to see him in pain like that. But I couldn't just forget what he had done to me.

"Madeline I beg of you. Let's talk." He whispered in my ear.

His heat and presence somewhat intimidated me. I hated feeling weak and I wasn't going to let him corner me like this.

I turned to face him.

"Fine, you want to speak to me then go ahead. Are you going to tell me the same thing as before, that you had been lying to me about my mother's death since I was a child. That you knew those letters I thought she sent me weren't really from her. How you bullied me most of my life. Made me feel unwanted and hated like my father used to. So tell me, what exactly do you want to say to me that I don't already know." I hadn't realized I was crying until I noticed the concerned look in his eyes.

"Please don't cry baby. I hate seeing you in pain."

"Oh really, because you loved to hurt me when we were kids. I don't see why that might have changed."

What was I even saying? I knew Grayson hated seeing me in pain. Even though he had disliked me when we were children, he was always by my side whenever I cried. When I had just moved in to his family's home he had slept beside me every night because I missed my mother and I wouldn't stop crying. He was the only person who could sooth my pain.

But I still resented him for keeping such a big secret from me. A secret I so desperately deserved to know. Although it was because I loved him so much that it hurt me more when I found out.

I could see the sadness in his eyes. My words had hurt him.

"Just please, leave me alone Grayson. I don't ever want to see you again." I was lying, but it hurt me so much seeing him again.

He looked as if he were on the verge of tears. Nothing came out of his mouth and instead he just left.

I finally got inside my apartment. Like a zombie I walked to my bedroom lost in thought. I laid in my bed with teary eyes. The city lights were the only thing lighting up the dark room. Then I just broke down.

I cried all night feeling this terrible pain in my chest. I hated that I saw him today. I hated the universe for putting him in my life again. But what I hated the most was that I was still madly in love with Grayson Lockwood.

I couldn't help but miss the times I slept next to him with my head resting on his strong chest as he wrapped a protective arm around me. The warmth that emanated from his body always calmed me down. Now I just felt lonely.

END OF CHAPTER 3

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