The Living Dead (Tragic Story #2)

Chapter 8

Long Gone

Binagabag ako ng kung ano-ano sa isipan at halo-halong emosyon na kailanman hindi ko naramdaman.

Umalis ako sa bar at hindi na tinapos makinig sa usapan ng dalawa. I needed to message Ms. Rose for not being there in her office. My mind is very occupied I couldn't talk to anyone at the moment.

I couldn't believe I'd be feeling this way. For life's sake! He didn't even consider me real. His intentions are all fake and he really loves that freaking woman, why am I acting this way anyway?! This is insane! I know all that and here I come, getting paranoid alone! Without him knowing!

I sat on the edge of my bed and breath hard. My face is heating up, I'd probably kill something or destroy everything for being such a fool! I drank water and all I know I had beers on my table, in the veranda, getting myself drown again with all these bottles of liquors.

I didn't realize that. I didn't know I drank until morning has come and saw what probably I have done last night. Bottles of beers are everywhere. Some even are cracked! That's when automatically I felt my left foot is aching. I looked at it and there is still sticky and dry blood on the scar. I grimaced upon seeing it. I must have gone crazy! I am a heavy drinker I never deny it. Ever since when I drink, it is never just glasses but lots of bottles. Sometimes I earn money just for it, can you believe that?

Though, I am still calm when drinking. I can bear it and still manage myself after drinking hard.

Tanghali na akong nagising kaya malamang ay hinahanap na ako ni Tonett. I have my scheduled work in the mansion today and see, I am a drunkard who just woke up with all of this mess. So.. I'll definitely go to any of my jobs for now.

I took bath first, fix myself and fix my very messed room before charging my low-bat phone. As soon as it turns on. Messages kept coming and I know it was all from Tonett. I called her.

"Hello, Ton-"

"Hoy! Text ako ng text, tumawatag ako, hindi ka naman ma-contact! Anong nagyare, gaga ka?!"

"Masama pakiramdam ko, kagigising ko nga lang at masakit pa rin ulo ko.."

"Hala! Wala kang kasama dyan, sino mag aalaga sayo? Naku naman! Mabuti sana kung walang trabaho ngayon.."

"Okay lang, Tonett. Hindi naman malala. Masama lang talaga ang pakiramdam ko. Pasabi naman kina senyora at senyor."

"Huwag kang mag-alala. Kanina hinahanap ka nila pero sinabihan ko silang may sakit ka. Hindi nga ako nagkamali."

"Salamat talaga. Papasok na lang ako siguro sa sabado."

"Hindi na daw sabi ni senyora. Sabihan raw kita na magpahinga ka muna bago ka daw nila kausapin."

"Kakausapin nila ako?"

"Oo Zari. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit.."

"Ahh.. sige, pasabi na lang na sa lunes, papasok na ako."

"Oo! Pasensya na hindi kita mapuntahan.."

"It's fine. Promise."

"Okay! Pagaling ka, hah."

"Salamat, Tonett."

It's weird hearing that my first bosses want to talk to me. For what? They never summoned me or something kaya nakakapagtaka na gusto nila akong kausapin. Hindi kaya paaalisin nila ako sa trabaho? Hell no. Mababawasan ang mga alak ko. I'll find it out on Monday so better not think about it now. Nagpatuloy ako sa pag linis hindi lang ang kwarto kundi ang buong bahay.

Inabala ko ang sarili para hindi mag isip o mag balik tanaw ng kung ano. Tumigil lang ako sa ginagawa ng makaramdam ng gutom. I prepared myself a late lunch and very early for dinner. Nang matapos kumain ay nagpahinga ako sa sala. Napaka tahimik. Mag isa sa buong paligid. This isn't new to me though.