Omnipresent Love

Chapter 11 - Follow Him

[James' point of view]

"Praise God! Hallelujah! " Mary said to me while eating our lunch in a restaurant near the church.

"Yes, Thank you, Lord! Finally, God answered my prayer!" I praised God.

"You know what James, I'm glad I saw your genuine repentance when you stood up and being emotional a while ago," Mary said to me.

"Yes, Mary. I was really compelled to stand. I am now ready to surrender everything to God whatever the circumstances. Even if no one called me that I have a job, I will still be happy because I know God will take care of me!"

"Yes! Praise the Lord! He is good and blesses those who humbles himself to him!" she said while Mary closed her eyes in joy.

"Now I know why I am being visited by God in my dreams. I sometimes have dreams about Jesus. This is what he said that there would be changes in my life and it is happening now!"

"Oh, that's interesting!" said Mary.

"There are so many things I have been dreaming about him, but the most significant is that He himself presents as the Savior of our sins for he is the only qualified substitute for us of God's wrath that supposed to be put on us."

"And also to acknowledge that He is the Lord of our life. We must surrender our lives to Him even our plans, ambitions, and dreams. That's my turning point in my life right now. I cannot forget this day Mary because this is my spiritual birthday".

"Hallelujah! Heaven is now rejoicing for another soul has been saved on this day!" Mary shouted again praising God.

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Then I started to work at a new company in Manila. I was so blessed with bigger pay and benefits. I was blessed that many of my officemates especially on my team are Christians and we have weekly Bible studies that made me grow closer and closer to God.

Then a month later, I started to move to a place to stay near to my workplace. I am still again blessed for cheaper rent, and not only that, my neighbors, board mates, and even the landlord are Christians. We have also Bible studies regularly and I am actively joining it because of my hunger in my heart to know God more.

Inside the church, I was also serving as an usher. I am greeting the churchgoers with my best smile while wearing shiny white long sleeves and a green tie.

Serving God gave me fulfillment and a great purpose that I never experienced before.I remembered what God said to me in my dream when He disguised as a flight attendant that I will be exiled in Manila and be fruitful in this place.

I also joined a discipleship group in which my leader there is a married man. He always shared about how God beautifully writes their love story with his wife.. They are happily married because both of them are devoted to the Lord and served Him with all of their heart even their children. I had this desire grew in my heart that I will build a family like that.

But there is one problem, Angela still hasn't learned to be devoted to God. Her spiritual eyes are still not opened. She only goes to church because of me. Her senses on spiritual things are very dry like a lake run out of water. I always prayed for her, reached out to her, shared with her about the love of God. But still, she just brushes that off.

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Days go by and I keep on growing in my relationship with the Lord. This makes me busier and getting less time with Angela. She felt my time with her was taken away more and more because of the Lord.

We sometimes have a conflict with this, but I keep on making adjustments so I can be with her. I compromised my faith and purity just to please her and that's what makes me always convicted.

I do not want this kind of life that I always choose between God and her. I still prayed and hoped that Angela would open her eyes and her heart will now be devoted to God just like me so it would happier if both of us chase God together.