The Sin of Desire

Prologue

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He is kissing me torridly, his right hand is caressing my left bosom while the other one supporting me from behind. We are still standing here at the living room while kissing.

"Oh god!" As i moaned in between our kisses. I will miss this. I will miss him, and everything about him. But this is all a sin. A sin that hurts many people concern to us.

I turn my head to the side to avoid his kisses "s-stop".

Before we get further, i held his face with my both hands trying to capture his attention.

"Chen please.." he said. We are now staring at each other. I can see his needs from his grey eyes. But i held still. Masakit man sa akin ito, but i need to do this.

"Lets stop this." All i can say. He tried again to kiss me but i block his lips using my palm. He sighed as a sign of defeat.

"Okay, okay!" He step backward, "i'll stop". He walks to sit on the couch.

"Lets stop this kind of set-up." I said. I saw him turned to me with confusion written on his face.

"itigil na natin kung ano man ang meron satin. Mali, since this set-up started we had already nothing. We are nothing, right?" I can see pain in his eyes, or i am just assuming.

"You're kidding, right?" As he tries to soften this conversation. Alam kong may idea na siya kung ano ang ibig kong sabihin.

"I hope i am, but i'm not."

"But w-why?" Halos hindi yan lumabas sa kanyang bibig.

I walk towards him and kneel down and hold his hands. "Is there something wrong? Tell me, may nagawa ba ako that makes you to do this thing?" He asked. Parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa mga sinabi ko.

And i know i am also hurt this time, seeing him like this. Unti-unti na rin nagiging fuzzy ang paningin ko cause by the tears forming inside my eyes. Mukhang any moment i can't hold this anymore.

" wala ng patutunguhan 'to. At kung ipagpapatuloy pa natin 'to, one of us might get hurt. And i don't want us to end up hurting each other." Kahit na ngayon pa lang nasasaktan na ako because i fell for this trap, I fell for him. And i don't want him to choose. Because i know it will cause me more sharp pain.

"Ayoko, hindi ko kaya. I can't afford to lose you Chen. Ano ba kasing nagawa ko?" Nabigla ako sa sinabi niya. And tears fell from his eyes. Oh god! He is crying infront of me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya umiiyak. Perhaps i am right that he is in pain. Sana nga tama ako na nasasaktan siya ngayon dahil mawawala ako sa kanya. Dun na rin bumagsak ang luhang kanina ko pa pinipigalan.

"Sabihin mo, dahil ba kay Anne kaya sinasabi mo lahat 'to? Okay, i'll go to her and tell her to stop pestering you." As he continue. But i hold him tightly.

"No. Marami na kasing nasasaktan at masasaktan pa. And she's right, i'm a whore. Isa akong puta na pinulot mo lang at binahay. At ayoko nang ganito, yung i'm sharing for your time when in fact wala akong karapatan sayo. Wala nga akong karapatan na magdemand sa lahat ng ito" as i roam my eyes around the house. "Ni hindi ko nga alam kung ano talaga tayo". Tears continue flowing. Tumataas na rin ang boses ko dahil i am really hurt at this moment.

He held my face "sshhh" then wiped my tears. He moves closer to me and locked our forehead.

"You're not one of them. Hindi ka whore at mas lalong hindi ka puta. Remember you are mine, mine alone" he said na nakapagpagaan sa loob ko, knowing that i am his. I'm all his.

I feel calm. "But Claven, i don't want to be your mistress nor your other woman, or your secret affair" bigla akong nanlumo sa mga sinabi ko. Dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na yun ang tingin nila sa akin. Yung mga taong walang alam sa amin. Hindi di ko rin mapigilan ang hindi maiyak.

He is staring into my eyes. "No. You are not and you won't be" then Claven kissed me.

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