Aliyah
Time for school and I'm not looking forward to it. But ey I promised my mom to at least get my diploma so yup hear we go.
I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. Every room in the house has a bathroom connected to it. I looked at the mirror and sighed.
"My hair is a mess. My cheeks are fat. I got bags under my eyes. Those bruises Brandon left are still there. I'm fat. I'm a burden." I whispered.
I sighed again and started stripping for the shower seeing mire of my insecurities.
I got in the shower and lathered my body with soap.
"Siiri play Idontwannabeyouanymore" I yelled.
If tear drops could be bottled
There'd be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore
If I love you was a promise
Would you break it
If you're honest
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
I don't wanna be you, Anymore.
I stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel and dried my body and hair.
I went to my room and picked out a black hoodie, Black sweatpants and some socks
It be 40 degrees outside and I'd still wear this. Besides I don't wear a shirt.
I finished by wearing my all black airforces. I decided on taking a cap and putting it over my afro so my hair would be visible on the sides of my head.
I went to my dresser and took my pills, swallowing them dry and throwing the container in my book bag. I looked at my room for the last time and went out.
"Heeyyy Liyah" Nicole dragged out with a huge smile on her face. Could never be me.
"Hey." I whispered and forced a small smile.
I sat on the kitchen counter and greeted Jordan and Ameri.
"How you feeling today?" Jordan asked while dishing the food.
I just looked at him with a neutral face and he got his answer. He sighed.
"Look, I know you're frustrated but hang on ok? Just a few more months then no more school." He said caressing my cheek.
See this is why I love Jordan. He understands and tries by all means to make sure nothing is wrong with anything.
I jumped from the counter taking a seat on the bar stools and laying my head in my folded arms.
"Is she always like this?"
"Yeah she hates school but it's for a valid reason."
"Oh. Poor liyah."
These niggas finna have this conversation like I ain't in the room? The disrespect.
We had our breakfast and headed to school after. We nearly didn't make it in one piece because Jordan wanted to play need for speed with us in the car.
"Ok so before we go in I got ya'll these." Jordan said pulling out 3 cans of peppermint spray and hand guns.
"The fuck are these for anyway." Ameri asked taking one can and a gun.
"Oh you'll know once you see trey." He replied.
"Oh."
"Ok let's get to class before mrs. Lauren losses her shit." Nicole said and Jordan kissed his teeth.
