Only exception

Chapter 7

How long has it been? 30 minutes? 1 hour? 2 hours? Or maybe even longer? I don't know.
I'm still wearing my plaid skirt and my The Smiths shirt that I wore on my date with Nash, a few minutes or hours ago.

Honestly, I've done nothing since I got out of that car and ran inside my room. I'm just laying in my bed, staring at my ceiling, looking for an answer to my problem. To my embarrassment.
What was I thinking? Not long ago, I thought I was having the best day of my life. Well, not anymore.

Except for that kiss, oh my.
My heart hurts a little more every time I think of it. Every time I think of him.
It hurts more and more because I think that maybe I won't ever see him again. Maybe I won't hear his jokes ever again. Maybe I won't hear his laugh. Maybe I won't hear his accent. Maybe I won't feel his lips, ever.
Maybe I ruined it all for us.
Us...

The thing is, I don't even understand my feelings. He is so not the type of guy I would like. I usually have crushes on skater guys. Ya, skaters. I don't really know though, I just think that guys who skateboard are so cool. I also really like long hair on guys, but not extremely long. I mean, I'm not falling in love with a male version of Pocahontas.

Even though I was right about the fact that I don't know him well enough, the same way he doesn't know me enough. It still really hurts to think that he might move on to something else.
I wonder what he must be thinking about me? Wait, is he even thinking about me, at all?

I don't know what to do. Should I call him and explain everything? Does this even deserve an explanation? Or is it too late, did I really ruin everything?

My dear, you've ruined everything, my subconscious haunts me one more time before I close my eyes an try not to think. At all.

NASH'S P.O.V

What did I do wrong? I thought I did a great job on our date tonight.

We were having a great time. She told me she had fun, I mean, she kept laughing and smiling at me almost the whole time (when the movie wasn't sad or dramatic of course).
Then she told me it was too soon. Then why did she kiss me?
She likes me. I know she does, she told me before she left. But why did she leave?
This is so confusing, too confusing for me if I'm honest. I hope she's not just playing hard to get. Cause girl, if that's what you're doing, ya need help.

Eva.
That name haunts me. It doesn't leave my mind. It's all I think about nowadays.
Eva. Eva. Eva. Eva...
She's driving me crazy. Im crazy about her.

I need to talk to Matt. I'm staying at his place anyways, so I might as well see if he knows why she took off like that. Maybe he'll know what to do.
Maybe she never really liked me? God, it hurts so bad thinking that. I hope it's not true...

***

"... So do you have any idea why she said that? I just don't get it..." I told Matt when I finished explaining to him every detail of my date with Eva.

"I- um, no..." He said, looking away.

"What?"

"What?" He repeated.

"You know something don't you!?"

"No..."

"Yes! Yes you do! Matt, just tell me please!" I practically begged him.
I wasn't on my knees, but hey, it's the thought that counts.

"Okay, fine! But if you tell her, I'll kill you."

"Geez, I can just feel the love."

"Last year, Eva really liked this guy and... And they went on a date. After the date, they kissed... But when Eva told him how she felt; he told her it wasn't meant to be." He explained to me real fast.

"What? She told you that's what happened?"

"Not exactly... But I guess that, when they kissed, he just didn't feel the sparks like he thought he would."

"What kind of an idiot is that guy? How stupid do you have to be to reject a girl like Eva? Seriously, poor her. She must have felt so alone and miserable. I feel bad I wasn't there for her at that time... Gosh, I feel like punching that s..."

"Okay! Okay! We get it! He's an asshole! Can we move on to something else now?" He interrupted me.

"What's wrong with you? Don't you agree with me? That guy needs to be put in his place. You don't break a girls heart like that!"

"I didn't mean to hurt her feelings! I just didn't feel anything, that's all!"

"What?"

"Nash... I'm that asshole who broke her heart..." Matt told me and a mix of emotions came to me all at the same time.

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HOLY S***!!!!!! WHAT JUST HAPPENED?
I know you just be like "WHAT THE HELL??" But hey, that's the whole point.

Another cliffhanger... Sorry about that one though, but I'll post the next chapter soon.
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