my littlespace book!

i cant help but love you

:(

(tw: abuse ? i guess)

(be safe <3)

my older sister has been over at our house, its been a week or so

and i dont wites it 

of course, i love her

but i now realizing how much my mental health has improved since shes moved out

kinda starting to think maybe she was (slightly) verbally abusive 

idek, that seems slightly excessive, but it wouldnt come as a surprise

now why am i putting tis in my littlespace book, and not my rant?

well, its because  

i cant regress while shes at home, because it stresses me out to know she could see me in a vulnerable state

she knows im a little, i thought shed help out with it and take care of me a bit,

well no

she just made fun of my huge hoodies, baby talk, and pacis

and i also think that that might be the reason why i was on such a long hiatus with regressing 

but her being here is an issue, 

instead of regressing at home, where my safe place is, im regressing at school, even during geometry (in which, the teacher in that class is used to teaching college students)

i just wanna be safe

because we used to be super close, 

so i guess thats probably why i never considered she could be a problem 

anyway

i love you all

thank you for letting me rant 

take your medicine

drink water

get sleep