another mini rant out of littlespace

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by Allyizm

by Allyizm

o k a y

boy am i mad.

*possible trigger warning: grooming, sexual topics, dark age play*

okay so a few days ago, *i am a minor* a twenty year old man came to me, we talked for a bit in real life, and it went very sexual and i was extremely uncomfortable and didnt know how to deal with it.

why am i talking about it?

it made me think of dark age play

because when i see dark age play kinds of things in relation to pedophilia, it 1. makes me uncomfortable 2. is not the same thing

dark age play is completely okay, as long as its consensual

pedophilia does NOT equal dark age play

pedophilia is when an adult and a minor have sexual relations (consenting or not)

dark age play is when two CONSENTING adults have sex, and one of them acts like a child

ACTING LIKE A CHILD AND BEING ONE IS TWO DIFFERENT THINGS

PEDOPHILIA IS N O T OKAY

in my state, a minor could do 'date-like' things with an adult, but it is illegal to have sexual intercourse with them.

and now i hate hearing that, because he said 'look, we could date and it'd be legal, and if we we're to have sex, it'd be okay because no one would know' *along those lines* and IT BOTHERED ME SO DAMN MUCH

i dont really know what got me to type all of that, i dont even know if it makes sense, but im mad.

i genuinely hate people who think talking about such sexual topics like that is okay with an age difference like that.

*this next part is me ranting about the guy, so warning*

list of why it was so wrong:

1. i hadnt even known him for 24 hours

2. i barely knew him

3. he was twenty, i'm about 14, almost 15 *thats a 6 year difference*

4. we were at c h u r c h c a m p

5. he did many inappropriate things

a. showed me a condom he had in his wallet,

b. asked me if he was 'dateable' and 'fuckable' *not in general, but if I would do that to him*,

c. even after i told him i had a boyfriend and a girlfriend, he said 'if we don't date, can we still be friends with benefits?' *i told him no, i wasnt comfortable with it and wasn't into that kind of thing*

those are just my top three things u g h

i'm so glad i'm home now, i never have to see him again.

but i am still extremely uncomfortable.