baby girl | chanlix

twenty-six.

"Baby girl, why are you sad, why do you cry, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, "I shot up from my bed. Chan's voice ringing in my ears. 'I love you, Felix.'

I screamed into my pillow and tried to cover my ear as those 4 words rang in my head. No, you don't. You don't love me. You hate me. You want to break my heart. You want me to fall for you so you can hurt me in return. 

I pulled myself out of bed without any strenth and went to my bathroom and took a long bath. I got out and looked over the fading bruises. They were hardly visible by now. I changed into large sweatpants and a large shirt before making my way downstairs. 

No noise was made throughout the house. Nothing. I stood in the middle of the hallway and was engulfed by the silence. I walked to the living room and watched a movie. 

"I love you, I've always loved you, since the day we met, so please don't die, it's too early," the guy cried out to the dying girl as I turned the TV channel.

"WHY DO YOU DO THESE THING TO ME, I'VE PORED MY HEART OUT FOR YOU AND YOU GO AND BREAK IT LIKE IT WAS MERELY A STICK!"I turned the TV channel.

"--I love you can't you see that every day I do something for you with nothing in return and never ask for you to do anything, but now, just this once, I ask you to tell me, do you love me, or have I been hopelessly pawning after you for nothing."The TV channel was changed. 

"FUCK YOU, I LOVED YOU AND YOU CHEAT ON ME WITH MY BEST FRIEND, you're A FUCKING LOSER," the small innocent girl yelled. 

"You tell him, sweety," I said and once again changed the channel. More confessions, more girls yelling at boys for either cheating or something else. I eventually turned the TV off losing any hope in that and grabbed a jacket before walking outside. It was snowing very lightly. 

I walked down the roads and let the cold air wrap it's comforting arms around me as the wind kissed my face. I saw Seungmin and Chanwoo walk into Jeongin's house with large smiles on their faces. I walked on by and walked past the park. 

I had been walking for what felt like hours as I returned home, I had walked to the mall and walked around and saw people from school and then I went to the park and walked around there for a while and now I'm back home. 

I got to the bathroom and look and my red face and pull my jacket off before putting it in my room. I went downstairs and made Hot Chocolate and pancakes before sitting down in the living room. 

I turned YouTube on and watch videos that made me happy, well until a friend of the YouTubers walked in with his girlfriend and they joined the video holding hands and kissing in the background every so often making my heart hurt. 

I finished everything I was drinking and eating before turning an anime on that hopefully didn't have a girl pawning after the main guy character. 

I sat there and watched the action scenes bored and lifeless. My doorbell rang and I got up with slumped shoulders.  On my porch stood the trio. Chanwoo, Seungmin, and Jeongin all stood there with happy faces. 

Their eyes scanned over me and the smiles fell. They came inside and looked at the spotless house. 

"You look like hell," Chanwoo said with a slight laugh. 

"I feel like hell, "I said before going into the kitchen to get more Hot Chocolate as I was cold again. 

"What's happening Felix, where is the smiling boy I remember from a few months ago, "Chanwoo asked.

"Hyung, Chan told me he loved me last night, but he was drunk, it's been nagging at me since then, "I said and sat at the breakfast bar. 

"Did he seem to mean it, "Jeongin asked.

"I don't know, he was crying while saying it, "I said.

"Why don't you call him, text him, shit even e-mail him if you want. Just contact him and ask him, "Seungmin said.

"Why would I do that, "I asked.

"Felix, just do it, "Chanwoo said and slide my phone to me.

I opened my phone and saw a missed call. I unlocked it and saw that Johnny had called last night. I said to myself that I would call after I called Chan. I clicked on Chan's contact and the phone started to ring. 

"Hello," a voice rang through the phone.

"C-chan, "I asked on my phone.

"What's up, sweet pea," he asked.

"D-do, do you love me, "I asked.

"Do you not remember last night, I told you that I love you, why don't you believe me, "Chan asked with an audible smile.

"Really, like your not joking, "I asked.

"Never, I would never lie about something like this," he said.

"You love me."

"Yes, I love you," he said and I heard a door shut. I should hear in walking through the phone, "Now would you let me in, baby girl," he asked as a knock could be heard on the front door. 

I walked to the door and pulled it open the phone still at my ear,"Hi baby," Chan said hanging up the call. 

In his arms, there was a bouquet of red roses. He held them out to me and said, "Will you go on a date with me tomorrow night?"

I pulled him into a hug as the flowers were dropped. He kissed my cheek gently before I pulled away and picked the flowers up. I ran up to my room and filled a vase for them before placing them on my desk.