why the hell do i always do this? i am so afraid of myself being a bad person i don't let myself take over. i hate myself because of it. in my opinion im loud, obnoxious, mean spirited. i hate what ive become but the hardest part is that everyone else seems to like it. i am not who i say i am. but the person who i hate is the one everyone else knows me as. what if i change and they don't like me anymore? i hate it, cause im always telling her 'be proud' and im not even proud of myself. the one who hates me most is the one i have to live with all of my life and there is no escaping this hatred.
