Deep in the ocean
Soon I must take breath
Do breaths even matter
Why should I have another
Why shouldn't I just stay in these watery depths
Which envelop me in warmth
When I am so close to death
I could end it all now
Just stop with your instincts
You could stop time in your head
And you will never feel like you felt again
Why would you try to take another breath
Knowing that you could stay here eternally
Not trapped but sleeping in the deep blue sea
Why would you rise knowing this could be your ending
This vast blue heaven where my life will be mended
Then I think of my fire
My sun
She shines bright for forever
Makes me think I'll be alright for forever.
I swim up
I want the sun to beam on me
Desperately kick upwards
Fight
Fight
Don't stop fighting
Hurt
Ache
My lungs are burning
She is the last thing I picture
The sun radiates
I bask in her warm glow as my eyes see light for the final time
I don't see her anymore
I am scared
I am alone
It's too dark
I want to go back to her but I know I can't
She's alive and I'm dead
