For months I felt guilty
I was drudging up the darkness
I could have let it be
But it only would have grown
It only would have gotten worse
Today it clicked
I saw the pattern
And I stopped it in its tracks
But I couldn't see that before
I had known there was a pattern
And that letting it continue would have been a mistake
But I didn't really register that
I guess
I exposed the pattern
Refused to take the next step
And made my own path
There was a pattern
To how we were falling,
And climbing
And falling
And climbing
And falling again.
And I said stop
I refused the treacherous climb to the top
Instead opting to take the long way around
That was the best decision I have ever made.
I exposed the pattern
And now the pattern is gone
