i hate my life
i am privileged
i am fed
i am housed
so why
i hate everything about myself
my appearance
my personality
every tiny fucking thing
i fucking hate
i hate it all
i want it all to stop
i want to feel in control
i want to feel like this life
is a gift
and not a burden
and that i am a gift
and not a burden
and i want to feel secure in my words
when i say them
i want to feel confident in my actions
and positive about my decisions
but to be honest i'm not
i am fucking sick of myself
i want to tell myself to shut the fuck up
sit the fuck down
crawl in a hole and fucking die
i would be better off
i'm tired of being in people's way all the time
of being the second or third or last choice
of feeling awkward and frustrated
all day long
i'm sick of my life
i'm sick of myself
i'm sick of every person i fucking know
i'm fucking sick and tired
i want to start over or i want to die
and i can't get in control of myself enough
to do either of those things
so FUCK ME i guess
F
