spilled milk
and broken tiaras
it's been a life time
of dropping everything i'm given
watching it all shatterbad decisions
and lies
i'm not a person
you want to be friends with
i've broken people beforei tell myself i'm a good person
because i'm not afraid to lie
to anyone
myself included
and i'm not afraid to hurti hurt
all the time
and tell my friends
i'm fine
it's another liei hurt
myself
my family
the people i need
i wonder why can't they see
that their problems
their heartbreaks
are all caused by me
and i know how that sounds
i know it's a selfish way to speak
but i can't help it
all day i think
about how happy they'd all be
without me
i lock up my monsters
and pretend like they need me
because i need to be needed
i'm fucked up
selfish, conceited
i'm breaking down
the way a lie does over time
falling apart
because nothing i have is mine
as soon as they see
as soon as i slip
my world will be backwards
spun around and flipped
and i'll be alone
they way i know i've always been
but these masks are so pretty
i don't want to give up on them
i said before
i'm not afraid
i m not afraid
i'm not afraid
then again
in the back of my mind
i know
i know
that's another lie