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Chapter 24 - Sleeping Whispers

After a while though I calmed down, I turned my head going into his neck as I pulled him closer seeking comfort. He smiled and hugged me back. I started playing with his hair until he fell asleep. Then I started talking again... "Look Andy I know you are asleep and won't here this but, I think I might like you more than I should... and I know that's a good thing, but I've got rules and boarders. It's new for me and I'm sorry if I'm behaving like an idiot one minute and then a cuddly bear the next. However, this is who I am, one broken, complicated person, but aren't we all complicated? Aren't we all a little broken? And since I brought that up, Andy you want me to go with you and live there, but I'm scared. Of course, I freaking want to, it's just that, I'm not like your parents, or friends, or like you. I can't just go there with the thought that I'm a failure and be happy living with you. You look so gorgeous when you sleep by the way, he like you can hear me anyways. But Andy will hurt you sooner or later. I can't have you because if I do, it will hurt even more. I just want you to be happy, I want your cute smile to be as bright as possible, I want your eyes to shine like the sun every time you look at me, I want your voice to fill the whole room and never stop being in my head. I want you... but I can't have you.

Ill tell you Andy, one night in my dreams I felt really tired, like my body wants to sleep but my mind wouldnt let me. It wanted to keep me awake and make me regret everything I've done, every bad decision I've made, remember every person that has left me. I was losing it, I am losing it. I am losing control again Andy, over my body, over my mind, I am starting to lose control over myself. Then in my dream a warm hand dragged me back to reality by caressing my chest lightly. My eyes were close from fear, but his touch, your touch made me open them. And you were there, smiling softly at me, your eyes calming me down and then your sweet angelic voice being like a sweet lullaby for my ears. I was hearing you, but I couldn't understand you due to my heartbeat, which was banging loudly in my head. I closed my eyes again because I was tired of trying to fight it, but then you started singing something, something very quiet, but loud enough to make me smile. You then wrapped your arms around me again, put your head on my chest and continued singing the sweet melody. Then I slowly gave myself to the comfort and fell asleep. This strange buzzing noise woke me up from the dream I had. It was about someone, I don't know, because he had a black mask and black clothes on. He looked like a shadow, lost in his own world, he looked like me. I tried to reach him, I tried to grab his hand and throw the mask off his face, but he was like a rainbow, because you know as close as you get to where the rainbow seems to touch the ground, it moves as quickly as you approach. And he was like that, he was moving fast, I was running after him, chasing him. Trying to find him but then he disappeared like he was never really there. Then in the dream I turned around and there he was Andy, this beautiful, kind, loving boy who wants me to be happy...

Andy, you have no idea what I have been though, you can never know what situation I was in when I had no one, and I don't want you to know, I want you to be safe and happy, with me you won't be either of them things. The good in the dream was that we were together, living happily, smiling, laughing, loving each other, we were happy like normal people. I was truly happy because you was there with me, I was happy because you never left me. So yeah my point is that I'm trying to be better, also thank you Andy for all those good things you do for me. Thank you for staying here, you don't have to, but you stay so... I'm glad you are here." I whispered, before I sank back into him and fell asleep myself.

(Andy's POV)
I woke up in someone's tight grip, in someone's warm embrace. In his big strong arms, sprawled on his muscled chest feeling his heart beating steadily. I was safe in his arms. In Rye's arms. Yeah I know how ridiculous that sounds and when you know he kidnapped me and wanted to rape me (like I keep bringing up), but he is not bad, I know he is not, he is different from everyone I have met. I really hope he comes with me to live in my house because I really want to help him. "Mhmmmmm..." Rye made noise to show me that he was awake, and I realised something. I have been staring at him for the past few minutes. I smiled at him when I saw his shining honey eyes. He smiled and hid his face in his hands and started giggling softly. Cutely. "Good morning babe." I chirped quietly as he looked at me confused. His eyes searching for words, searching for something. I shook my head and looked away. "Sorry I didn't mean to-" I started saying but he cut me off, placing his hand on my chin and turning it towards him. His gorgeous smile made me smile weakly and look down. "I'm sorry." I whispered as he giggled and pulled me in for a hug, holding me closer to his body, to his warmth as if he was trying to merge us both together. "I like it when you call me babe." He whispered softly as I hugged him back and smiled.

And I like calling him it...