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Fragile

Can was in the shower when Sanem approached his working bench, there were maps, tickets and brochures from his trip in Mongolia. There were notes as well where he was recording where he was, how it felt and the distance they had driven between each stop. She smiled when she noticed ''Sanem'' being written here and there at the top or side of the page... he was thinking of her this whole time. She thought about what Yigit had done again, trying to keep them apart, he really had no clue how much they loved it each other already; if one thing, it made them realise even quicker how they couldn't live without one another.

Sanem turned around and leaned against the bench with her arms crossed. She squeezed her arms, her eyes shut tight. Memories of Yigit's touch were flooding her body and mind as if she was back on the boat. She started trembling. Can came out of the bathroom already dressed, he saw her back but didn't notice she was upset.

C: ''alright, ready! What do you want to do?''

Sanem snapped out of the nightmare she was relieving and rushed to the bathroom

S: ''I... I need to shower too...'' she locked herself in, wiping her tears. She swiftly removed her clothes and jumped into the shower.

Can was in the bedroom area and only heard her mentioning she was taking a shower; he didn't realise she was upset and decided to sort through his Mongolian photos while waiting for her. It took him some time to realise Sanem wasn't coming out, she had been in the shower for half an hour when he knocked on the door.

C: ''Sanem? Sanem? Are you ok in there?''

He heard nothing and knocked again but she remained silent. He decided to enter the bathroom and slowly opened the door so he could step out fast if she was alright.

C: ''Sanem?''

The room was filled with steam but as he looked at the shower, despite the blurry glass, he saw her violently rubbing the skin of her legs and back up on her stomach. He wasn't sure what to do, turn around or approach her and turn off the water... He decided to take a towel and hold it up in front of his face.

C: ''Sanem?'' he knocked on the shower door. He could hear her panting and still rubbing. He opened the shower door. ''Sanem'' he said louder.

S: ''I need to wash... I need him off me... I... I can feel him...''

Can decided to lower the towel, he moved very slowly and talked softly.

C: ''Sanem, it's Can... I'm going to stop the water ok? Your skin is red...'' he turned the knobs and dropped the towel on Sanem's back. That's when he realised how much she was shaking; she had dropped the soap and started to bent her knees to sit in the shower.

C: ''Sanem, no come out... come with me... we'll dry you and dress ok?''

She wasn't responding at all so Can tried to look away from her body as much as possible, feeling like he was violating her... again. He pulled her arm so she would step out of the cubical.

He tied a knot around her upper body with the towel, sat her on the toilet cover and knelt in front of her. She needed to snap out of it so he raised his voice a bit.

C: ''Sanem! You are in my studio! Yigit is in jail, this is over!''

She stared straight into his eyes, suddenly realising what was happening; she hugged herself as a protection reflex.

S: ''I feel so dirty... I can feel him on my skin, he's still here on me...''

Can was lost for words; he wasn't sure what to tell her to make her feel better and he was so scared to make things worse.