Endless Seduction G!P | JENLISA

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Lisa's POV

I woke up and felt genuinely awful. It was much better when I was asleep, when I could feel anything. Right now, I could slowly feel it creeping on me, the chest crushing realization that Jennie wasn't with me anymore. Reality hit me harder everytime. It was like a reverse nightmare when the nightmare was actually waking up to reality.

I closed my eyes again to try to get back to sleep. I didn't know how long I layed there, all I knew was that it felt like forever. I didn't want to get up but the silence made me feel more and more alone, it was deafening and the loneliness was enough to drive a person mad. I needed to do something. Maybe go out for a walk or run a few miles. I forced myself to get out of the bed. I could feel the nothingness washing over me like a wave. The stress, the sadness, the anger, they were things weighing heavy on me that threaten to break me if I let them.

Being without her was like missing a piece of myself and all that's left in its place was a painful and aching emptiness. I missed waking up to her kisses, I crave her lips on mine. I thought of how we used to spend our mornings. How we'd lay together, wrapped up into each other. It was like I didn't have purpose anymore, she as my reason for so many things and now she wasn't here anymore. I wished this nightmare was happening to someone else. I wished everything could go back to the way it was.

I took a quick shower and dragged myself out of the room after putting on my clothes. I decided I would go for a run to distract myself from my thoughts. Just as I got out of my room. I heard the pan sizzling from the kitchen. My heart suddenly skipped with hope. I was hoping I would see Jennie cooking our breakfast. Maybe she came back because she had already forgiven me.

I ran to the kitchen as fast as I could and my feet stopped when I saw who was there. I stood there for a moment, trying to take in what I just saw. Irene was setting up the table with the food she made. She had a plate in her hand was making her way to the table when she saw me, she stopped and smiled.

"Good morning." She greeted.

I gritted my teeth. I stayed speechless and motionless. Jennie is the one who only do that. It made me angry to see that someone else was doing what Jennie does for me. I never want to see any woman doing what Jennie used to do I never remember Irene making breakfast when we were still together.

"I searched for the ingredients in your kitchen. I made some omelette and bacon." She said putting the plate over the table. " Let's eat. "

I took bit, quick steps towards her and grabbed her by the arm.

"Are you not going to stop hitting on me?" My voice boomed throughout the room. "Wasn't everything you did enough?"

"Lisa, you're hurting me." She squeezed, trying to snatch her arm from my grasp. I had never hurt a woman physically but I felt like I was close to doing so.

"Aren't you happy for what you did? Aren't you happy for ruining our relationship? Do you really enjoy making my life miserable that much? " My fingers dug into her arm.

" I'm not willing to give you up if that's what you want or let you get away. I have the rights here because we're married. I'm your wife! " She yelled.

" I want nothing more than to get out of this marriage and away from you. "

" Let's give this marriage another shot please, Lisa. Let me be with you, let me show you how much I love you. " She begged desperately. "I've learned from my mistake. I promise I'd be the best wife to you."

I shook my head." Get out of here! " I dragged her by the arm to the door. She's trying to get out from me and finally freed herself from my grip.

"I won't let you and Jennie be together. Remember that! I will not let you to be with her! " She angrily said.

" Fuck you! " I roared." Even if Jennie and I broke, I will never go back to you! I'd rather be alone than be with a cheating whore. "

" You don't mean that. " She gently said, slowly walking towards me. She held out her hand and lightly touched my heel. "You're just confused. You still love me. I'll remind you how much you do." She moved her face closer to mine and before her lips could touched mine. I shoved her away from me. She stumbled back and fell to the ground. I didn't mean to shove her that hard, it was a natural reaction. She stared up at me in both surprise and embarrassment.

I kept a hard expression despite my shock. "Get out of here! Leave before I do something to you."

"Please, Lisa. Let's just give it another try. " She got up and tried to wrap her arms around me. I grabbed her arm and dragged her outside the door. I shut the door and ignored her pleas.

Jennie's POV

It was nice to have a friend to talk to and get my mind off things. It's good that Kai is always there for me. He was a big help to me. Today we went to town and had lunch at a restaurant. Even though I was with Kai, I couldn't keep my attention to her even if I wanted to. My mind was elsewhere. It was with Lisa.

A part of me regret sending her away, I could've been happy with her right now and not feel this miserable but a bigger part of me told me I did the right thing. She fooled me. I hated her for that. She made me a mistress. It would be wrong to still stay with her. Dad didn't raise me to be a mistress. Dad wouldn't say anything but I knew he'd be hurt if I go with Lisa. If I be hurt again I know dad will be hurt more. It was better this way.

"Jennie, are you okay?" He asked as we drove back to our hacienda.

I turned my head to him and smiled. "Of course."

"Just now you'll be okay without her. Trust me." He said. The same lies I've been telling myself everyday.

I did my best not to let my voice quiver. "I know."

It was quiet for a while. I looked out the side window and let the thought of her consume me. I thought I would start feeling better and become used to my days spent without her but I feel worse. I just felt devastated and empty without her. I never realized how full she made my life. I was angry at her but I knew nothing can change the way I feel about her and no amount of time can erase my memories of her even if I tried. She wasn't just the love of my life, she was so much more but she was never mine... even when we were still together. And that hurts like hell.

I felt my eyes dampening with tears and tried to swallow past the lump in my throat. I blinked away my tears and took in a deep and long breath.

You're stronger than this, Jennie. You can't keep on living like this.

I needed to get home from where I fell down and start over again. I couldn't live feeling sorry for myself my whole life. A part of me knew I couldn't wallow forever as much as I wanted to. I had to live my life. Even she was gone, I still have my dad and my friends.

His car stopped in front of our house. He shifted turning to face me and smiled.

"Thanks, Jennie. I had a great time with you." He said.

" I did too." I smiled back at him.

I was quite surprised when he took my hand in him. "Let me just say that you're beautiful. You're beautiful and Lisa doesn't deserve you. Jennie, remember when we were still together and the innocent live we had? You were happy with me, right? I can make you happier that she ever would."

" Kai..." 

" Damn it! She get you from me, Jennie. You were mine. You said you waited for me. If you didn't follow her you will not be like this right now. I hate seeing you like this. I hate what she did to you. " He squeezed both my hands. I wanted to cry but I held my tears back. "Jennie, I want you back..."

He leaned over to me and before I could react. I felt his lips on mine. He kissed me and I froze. It felt wrong but I didn't do anything about it. I just let him kiss me because I felt alone and weak and just tired of it all. I felt hot tears stream down my face as I kiss him back.

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N/A: aaaaaaaangst