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I heard "girl crush" today
while I was cleaning at a client's house
I lost hold of the bottle
just like I lost you

memories overwhelmed me
and I was with you
but also with that girl I sang with
I saw your smile and felt your nudges
I felt the heat of embarrassment
and the sting of anxiety

I told you I couldn't do it
that I can't sing
least not in front of others
especially without a voice to match with
but you still made me
you made me sing with that girl
and sing on my own
I can't hear "best shot" by Jimmie Allen
without wanting to tear my skin apart
until I reach my vocal chords
and rip those apart too
I've sung more since you left
and it's actually okay
the recordings I have aren't professional level
but they're not the worst I've heard

the more I reflect
the more I remember
and I've blocked you out so much
I'm not dealing with this anymore
you're gone, just as a ghost
I just wish you'd stop haunting me

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