Kiwi Wives

7

Diana's

I hate seeing her like this. She doesn't deserve to feel this way. She's beautiful the way she is and no amount of weight gain can ever define her beauty.

Kakagaling lang namin sa weigh off and we lost the weekly task. Kahit dissapointed, Sky encouraged us. It was a battle of uncertainty and there are several things out of our control at isa na roon ang aming katawan. I was fine with it kahit talo kami, but I was not feeling fine with how franki took the 0.15 kg she gained.

Kiara came in to encourage her, but she just felt fat. I even saw her changing her shirt because she was being insecure. She then came out with her frustrated face and went to the pool area. I followed with an ice cream pangpa-good mood sana kaso Sky went in to comfort her.

I sat there quietly while watching her feel frustrated and ignore all of their encouraging words. She's frustrated and no one, even I could comfort her. She needed time and I understood her so I kept myself quiet and ate the ice cream since she didn't want to have some.

Makalipas ang ilang minuto nang reklamo at pagtatanong kung may bilbil na ba siya, she sat next to me and kept quiet. I just looked at her and she returned the gaze. I smiled at her and asked if she wanted some ice cream, she frowned once again as if she was about to cry.

"Oh no, I didn't mean to!" Kinain ko nalang lahat nang mabilisan at pinakita sa kanya yung bowl. "Ayan wala na." I smiled awkwardly knowing that my actions would never comfort her pero gulat ko nalang nang biglang ngumiti si Franki at hinug ako. She chuckled a little bit and thanked me.

Bumalik ako ng kusina para hugasan yung kinainan ko when Kuya called Franki to the confession room.

Franki's

I was frustrated with myself. I knew I did the best I could but it clearly wasn't enough. Everyone of them lost weight. Heck, Gino even lost 3 kilograms. How the fuck do you do that in just a week?

They're encouraging words didn't just sink in me. I couldn't accept the fact that I'm the only one who couldn't contribute. The whole week I lessened my food intake and worked out a lot. How the hell did I not lose weight?

I sat next to the silent Diana and contemplated how I failed to do my part. Ugh, my guilt, insecurity and anger are just overpowering me. I needed a distraction.

I looked at Diana and I instantly felt at peace. However the peace didn't last long when I remembered our workout sessions and how hot she looked whenever she did the squats, burpees and planks. Fuck, I could even remember the sweat dripping down her long neck. I gulped and looked away from her to avoid my inappropriate thoughts.

I went back to my irritating insecurities when I felt the gaze of the silent person beside me. While everyone was comforting me, she remained silent and just sat beside me. I think she knows that no words of encouragement will even sink in me right now because I was still angry at myself. Diana really knows what to do with me and I just appreciate that about her.

I looked at her as well and she smiled. I wanted to smile back but when she asked me whether I wanted the ice cream, my insecurities came back rushing and all I wanted to do was cry. Diana panicked with the sudden change of my emotions and ate the ice cream fast. After finishing the ice cream she showed me her finished bowl with an awkward smile as if that would be of great help. I couldn't help but smile. There was no way I find that helpful but she acted so cute I couldn't help but adore her.

Diana is the only person who could make me feel different. She has this way of manipulating my emotions as if they are hers. She could hardly encourage me right now but she managed to make me happy just with her small actions. I hugged her tight because my instincts told me so and felt her warmth around me. I thanked her and went back to my position she went back to the kitchen to clean. Kuya then called me to the confession room.

As I entered the house, I saw Diana washing her bowl. I still couldn't help but smile remembering how cute she was.

She always acted differently from everyone. When everyone was yelling "Its okay Franki," earlier in the weigh off, she quietly hugged me from the back, patted my legs and whispered that its fine. In that instant I couldn't talk because I feel like I was falling and there was someone to catch me at the bottom. Diana made me feel like failures were fine because she was there to catch me. Having someone who understands your failures is such a blessing and that blessing is Diana.

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