Secret Love Song | SanKook ff

8

Sana's POV

I woke up having a slight headache

"Ugh! My head is going to kill me" I whispered to myself as I was getting out of bed

Then it was late for me to notice Jungkook leaning against the doorframe, both arms crossed above his chest and eyes on me like I'm an escaping prey

My head immediately went to our wall clock, '8:00 am'

"Oh... you're back so early, I thought you said that you'd practice till' 12:00 pm?" I ask then turn around to face him, his expression's not changing

"Where were you last night?" He said, his voice now stern and he has that very scary expression in his face

"I- I was with my friends..." I said

"Where"

"In a restobar..."

"Who is that guy?"

"He is--" I stopped, my brows met up in confusion and looked at him "Why do you even care?" I asked now kinda pissed

Did he know from the beginning? Why did he even ask those questions

"I care because I'm your boyfriend Sana!" His voice now went a little high, his body straighten, now he looks even more intimidating, gosh our height difference

"And because you're my girlfriend, you shouldn't go out there late at night hugging other guys!" He looks so mad

I couldn't help but feel pain, I've never seen him this mad, I know that I should be afraid right now but I felt irritated and kinda mad as well

"Yeah, I'm you're girlfriend so doesn't that mean you should trust me? Jungkook, out of all people, you should be the one who knows me better, you know that I'm not like that" I couldn't help it, I'm now mad as well, I felt a slight sting in my eyes

"You don't even know why I'm there, flooding my face with alcohol!"

"I was there because I miss you Jungkook, you always don't have time for me and even if sometimes you do, I couldn't even express myself because we can't interact in public without you wearing your mask and cap!"

"I'm sorry, I hugged my friend that I cherish as a brother.. I'm sorry if I miss you that much.. I'm sorry if my heart dies everytime you're not with me"

"I know I promised you that I'll support you no matter what.. Don't worry Jungkook, I'll keep that promise and support you till' the end, I'll continue ignoring you in public... I'm getting used to it anyways" I felt my tears as they fell one after the other

I walk past him and out of the room, I couldn't handle the atmosphere inside that room, I didn't even intend to say those words to him, It just that my heart and mouth acted before my brain could even process so I couldn't do anything about it

I grabbed my jacket from the couch, wore it and went out of the apartment to atleast get some fresh air

I started walking amongst the busy street and think again the scene earlier, I can't help but feel guilty for saying those to Kookie...

I should really be a better girlfriend if I want this relationship to last

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'Would you leave if I was ready to settle down?'

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