Remedy

Not Needed

She folded her arms across her chest with a determined look on her face. "I mean, think about it. Ryan's dead because you broke his heart, Sierra is bitter because you took both Ryan and Emmett away from her, Dylan isn't even here because he's still upset and heartbroken about the argument you two had. And I... well I've come to learn that I will never get what I want as long as you're still here." She spoke.

This couldn't be happening. How was I losing more people in my life right now?

First the Cullens left town and now I was finding out that my friends didn't want anything to do with me.

It finally weighed down on me, the loneliness I was trying to hide by taking pills and focusing on school activities.

I had been running away from it all but now I could feel it all gaining up on me.

I couldn't deal with this. I just needed to get away.

I walked away from Monica without another word.

I ignored everyone and anyone who called my name. Someone tried to stop me to ask about my 'amazing' trip to Italy but I just walked past them.

I walked out the door and headed to where I had parked my car. I got in and just sat there for a while.

I searched my bag for my pill bottle and found it in the glove compartment.
Empty.
I groaned and ran my hand through my hair in frustration.

I needed an escape. I needed my pills. I checked the time and realised that it was a little past midnight.

No pharmacy would be open at this hour.
I felt like my whole world was just crashing down on me. I felt like the more time I spent here the faster I would go down with it. I needed to get away, I needed to keep moving.
So I pressed on the gas and sent my car forward.

It was all too much too handle Ryan, Monica, Emmett... why was I losing everyone?

I couldn't deal with it.

I drove faster feeling like my deteriorating world was already catching up.

Tears stained my eyes as I continued driving. I knew exactly where I would go.

I drove past my house and stopped a little while ahead. I got out of my car not caring if I locked it or not and ran into the forest.

I ran past the trees until I finally got to the area that once served as my refuge.

But now it gave me more nightmares. I looked around the dark place; not sure what I was expecting to see.

"How could you leave me?" I yelled. I don't know if the question was directed to Emmett or my mother.
It didn't matter though, they wouldn't hear me... unless.

Another thing occured to me as I looked down at the body of water that sat in the middle of the area.

Emmett always showed up when I was in trouble. Especially when it was a life or death situation.

I walked closer to the edge of the seemingly shallow pond but I knew better than anyone how deep it really was.
I remembered when I had fallen in as a child and my mother had been there to jump right in after me and save me.

That's where my phobia of drowning came from and that's why I never learnt to swim.
I stepped closer to the edge and looked around.
I almost let out a humourless laugh. On the bright side, if I died, at least I'd get to be with my mother.

Then I did it. I jumped in, the cool water engulfed me completely.

I held my breath as I sank deeper and deeper to the ground.

I felt my head start to pound as the pressure built up.

But a strange part of me felt at ease. This was it, all the pain and suffering would finally stop.

My head felt like it was going to explode as my body willed me to take a breath.

Then I complied. I gave my body the relief it needed and allowed myself to breath. I felt the water rush into my body and fill up my lungs.

Then in spite of myself.... I smiled because this was it. It was finally over.

***

I shot up and immediately spat out the water that had been in my body.

I let out a gasp as I fought to fill my lungs with more and more air. My chest hurt like hell from all the water I had taken in and I couldn't stop coughing.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I heard a familiar growl.

"Emmett." I chocked out.

I sat up quickly too excited to see his face.
I immediately felt disappointed when I saw a different one instead.

Burgundy eyes looked down at where I sat on the ground of the forest in fury.

"Guess again." Alec growled.

I shut my eyes and bit my lip to keep from sobbing. It didn't work. I was with neither Emmett nor my mother.

I was still alone.

"I mean I knew humans were stupid but come on!" Alec continued yelling as he paced back and forth. "Suicide? Are you trying to be a typical cliché? I mean of all the things! If you wanted to die you should have just called my sister, she would've been glad to do the deal. Do you know what Aro would've done if we brought your corpse to him? I mean do you have any idea-"

I had tuned him out at this point. I got up from where I sat and hugged my body as the cool air hit me.

I felt numb, completely and utterly numb. I felt no emotion and I don't think I wanted to feel anything. Feelings just made everything worse. Feelings just hurt you in the end.

I shivered as I started to walk away.

"And where do you think you're going?" Alec yelled when he spotted my retreating back.

"I have a flight to get to, remember?" I told him monotonously as I kept walking.

He was silent for a while. For a second I thought he had disappeared. That's when I felt something warm over my shoulders. He had taken off his jacket and wrapped it around me.

I turned to look up at him.

"Why are you-"

"Shut up." He spoke. "I can't have you getting hypothermia and dying on me."

Then out of nowhere he swooped me into his arms bridal style.

I looked up at him in shock.

He rolled his eyes. "Don't think for a second that I'm going soft. I can still kill you in a second if I wanted to. I just don't think it's wise for you to be straining yourself after all you've been through."

Surely, it did feel good to be off my feet. I didn't realise how exhausted I had been.

I timidly wrapped my arms around his neck to gain more balance. He didn't seem affected by the gesture, he just kept walking at human speed until we got to my car.

He placed me in the back seat before heading over to the driver's side.

I yawned as I gradually felt the fatigue surround me. I pulled his jacket closer to myself and took in the sweet citrusy scent. I hadn't expected it to smell so good. I actually don't know what I had been expecting but it definitely wasn't this.

I saw that his eyes were on me through the rear view mirror and believe it or not but he was smiling.

"What?" I asked curiously as I struggled to keep my eyes open.

As if he had been caught, he suddenly looked away.

"Nothing." He spoke gruffly. "I should just probably mention that I've actually never driven an automobile before.

"Hmm." I hummed dreamily then the words actually registered in my head and my eyes shot open. "What?"

I saw him smirk. "Buckle up.