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Did you ever feel so awkward to a man?

I felt this feeling since eight years ago. My friend said that I love him. Really? I'm not sure about it, but maybe yes coz I never felt this feeling for another man.

I know him when I was elementary school. We are a classmate. I think we are close enough. If a word "Monkey love " is really exist, I can say that He makes me interest since 1st grade.

Since I never talk with him for eight years, I think it just an old story; but I just realize that my feeling just the same.

Even though he treat me like he never close with me, even treat me like he never ask me to write his assignment, even treat me like I never always standing next him when rank announcement in elementary school, even though he remember me as my brother's lil sister, not as his old friend, it just the same. My feeling just the same.

I tried to forget about this feeling for more than one year until now, I think. I stop stalking his social media, stop follow him. It starts since he has a girlfriend, and I often saw his post about her. I also want to block his number, but I can't coz we were join  elementary school group on Whatsapp. It will be so weird if he knows I blocked him.

I felt like he has betrayed me. I keep my feeling for him, but he doesn't.  Of course it's my own mistake, but I can't be treat like this. So, I prefer to forget my feeling.

I ask my God to give me better about my feeling, but sometimes I dreaming about him suddenly.

Maybe my feeling about him is not a big problem for me, but it still bothers me. Do I have to confess it to him, so I can feel relieved?

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