An Introvert's Poems and Prose

Dear Mr. Swimmer

I didn't imagine myself going crazy over with someone
To think of that someone isn't just anyone
But fate will tell, I met you on the golden hour of the day
We were inches apart, I know it's wrong, but I stayed.

I felt the thumping beat of my heart when I saw you smiled
But I saw sadness in your ash-brown eyes after a while
Are you okay? Is anyone hurting you?
Because I'd be willing to comfort you even out of the blue.

Weeks passed, and I heard a news, a good news
God wanted us to meet, without me having clues
Is this a good sign? Will I be falling for you again?
Or will my love stop and come to an end?

I admit it was hard to keep the love that's burning inside
I didn't want you to see how I blushed outside
I tried to just listen and do our tasks every week
You didn't know, but you were making me weak.

As time goes by, I was torn between love and doing what was right
I wanted to do the right thing before you will be out of sight
Yet I also wanted to continue falling deeper for you
That destiny might pave its way for us two.

Other people supported me; others didn't
"You will just be hurt" and "Do not fall for him"
I tried to control because I knew it was not right
But within my darkness and weary, you were my light.

As much as I wanna fill your gap that's been occupied,
By sadness, loneliness, and longing for love inside
I couldn't give you the utmost love you deserve
Because I knew, it was wrong to make you my universe.

I guess I fell deeper with your intelligence
And how you spoke in public with confidence
Even when I closed my eyes, I could see you
And I knew you became part of me, too.

You were that chorus of a song
The one I would listen to anytime soon
You were my favorite part of the book: the ending
The one I'd never get tired of reading again.

There were many times I had tried to forget you
Because there were many reasons, too
But I will let you go, I know it is now the right time
Although from the start, you weren't even mine.