Tired (Lance Angst)

Chapter 1

My name is lance McLane I am a paladin of Voltron. I'm what most people call a ladies man or a flirt. I'm the outgoing annoying goofball of the team. The useless and 7th wheel of the team but all that doesn't really matter considering the fact I'm tied up in a Galra prison being tortured till I'm covered in my own blood, Shocked with magic and Raped by Galra Guards on a daily bases. You may be wondering how the great sharpshooter of Voltron ended up here. Well sit back and listen to my tale.

7 days ago

"Lance get the fuck up!"

I'm quickly awoken by a swift kick from a very pissed off Keith.

"Well good morning to you too mullet." I sit up from by bed rubbing my side that was just kicked. 

"What do you want."

"You seriously don't remember we had training this morning. We were supposed to meet exactly at 6:30am but here you are asleep at 6:45." He finished his little rant and quickly left leaving me alone in my room.

 I got up and went to my mirror admiring the dark circles that had formed under my eyes from lost of sleep. I had finally fallen asleep just 1 hour ago. I haven't really been able to sleep for months. I'm constantly plagued with nightmares off my past, Usually of the day my mother passed in the accident or of my fathers abusive a day never went by when I wasn't covered in blood or cuts either from him or myself. 

I sighed as I glanced down at my arm, Old long white scars and new scars just barely healed  covered my dark skin. Just looking at these scars brings back memories of sleepless nights with tears and blood pooling beneath me on the floor. I slip on my armor wincing slightly from the pain as the sleeves go over my arms. I grab my Bayard as I'm leaving my room quickly. I have began to ignore my Moring beauty routine I just stopped caring. It's not like the other paladins even look at me anymore. 

I walk into the training room to be welcomed with Allure, Shiro and Keith glaring at me for being late most likely. Pidge and hunk just look away while Coran was just looking down inputting some numbers.

"Thank you for joining us lance" Shiro said with an annoyed toned. "Now shall we begin with todays training." He continued. "We will begin with some simple combat training today. We each will have 5 minutes to defeat a level 8 bot." 

Every one groaned at that final bit. The highest that most of us gotten to is 6 at most with the exception of Keith and Shiro. I could tell Todays training was not about combat. They were testing us on how we would face impossible odds. I'm sure Shiro would never have thought I would figure out his little plan for this training they all think I'm useless and stupid with only girls and jokes on my brain. 

While I was lost in thought Pidge went first she was struggling, barley able to keep up. After 5 minutes passed the bot stopped moving. Shiro spoke up. "Nice work pidge. You were able stay standing." He then looked at Hunk " Alight your turn."

After Hunk went it was Keith and of course he defeated the bot quickly and swiftly. Times like this is when I cant help falling in love with that mullet. I'm then quickly jolted from my thoughts as Shiro says my name. I stand up to enter the ring. I hear Keith mutter something under his breath but couldn't quite make it out probably something about how useless I am. 

I go ahead and give Coran a thumbs up letting him know I'm ready or at least as ready I could be with my body feeling heavy and exhausted from the lack of sleep and the late night training. Just as Coran hits the button a bot drops from the celling and lunges at me. I was able to doge once before my body gives out on me and won't move. The bot takes this opening and knocks me to the ground. 

"Stop!" Shiro yells as the bot shuts down. "What was that?" Shiro asked. 

"I'm sorry I...." Shiro cuts me off

"You need to take things more serious lance." Shiro exclaimed.

"I'm sorry, I've just been exhausted and not sleeping lately." I try to explain

"That's no excuse everyone is working around the clock and they are more exhausted then you could ever be." Allura interrupted. 

"Thanks for the pep talk coaches. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to find somewhere I could be useful." I turn with tears starting to form in my eyes. I could see both Hunk and Coran looking at me with worry as I walk out, I also thought I saw concern on Keith's dumb but handsome face but there's no way. Once I hear the door latch shut I begin running as fast as my body would let me to Blue. Once I'm safely in blue I sit in my chair. Blue starts sending soft purrs to me in a attempt to soothe me. 

"Thanks blue. I'm fine now." I wipe off a few tears from around my eyes and just stares up. " I don't really feel that much anymore. I'm just tired of feeling anything" Blue continues to purr I slowly drift off to sleep.