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Chapter 1

Taehyungs Pov :

September 4 , 2018 (pretend he's younger)
Lying on my bed looking up into my bland grey ceiling. A lot of shit has gone down lately that has turned my life upside down , and I have nobody here for me. It should have been me, I should have been the one to go not them they didn't deserve.

Flashback September 4 , 2017

"Mom can I hangout with my friends this friday?"

"Honey I'm not sure that's the best idea , your grades have been slipping and you know college is just around the corner. You have a big final coming up so I think you should stay home."

"Mom , come on please"

"Honey , i'm sorry"

"Mom you're so annoying , i hate you"

The car was super silent. I didn't feel like talking to her so I put my headphones in and just listened to my Khalid since he always seems to calm me down. I close my eyes and just let a deep breath out, you know what I think it's okay that she's don't letting my do to the pa—

Before I could finish my thought I see bright head lights shining from my moms side. I felt a force of impact I have never felt before. The last thing I remember was my body forcefully swaying.

The last words I ever spoke to my mom "i hate you"

Present day
A single tear rolls down my face hugging every curve it touches on the travel down to my neck. It shouldn't have been her , that car should have come on my side of the car. My mom didn't deserve to die so young. She works hard everyday even harder after dad passed 2 years ago. She loves me when nobody else did. I was a horrible child !

I chuck the pillow full force at the wall trying to release all my anger but all I can do is cry. Why do I feel so alone in this world with nobody else to help me.