School started at 100 pm until 600 pm, with that meant I had free morning-time. I spent some minutes to have chat with him. He and I were going fine. Having words on social media, Line or sometimes BBM, was our daily activities. Throwing jokes to each other. He had once given me a bunch of snacks for me (I mean my team) winning a competition. Giving glances to each other in every opportunities. Yada yada yada. Happy happy happy.
I hurt him. He hurt me. So, we hurt each other and started a new page. None of us wanted to bring those hurting-each other- topics. Both of us pretended we were just two strangers who hadn't been in each other's pasts. We were just those two students who had their high school love-stories. Yet we were still us. We were still us in the past; we were only the soon-couple-to-be. Replayed the same movie, the same cycle.
I waited. He never told his feeling. His truly feeling. Did I have to tell him first? As a girl who had no experience about this story, nope, not going to be happened.
I waited. He stepped. He tried.
We were playing the same movie, rewinding the same scenes. Although this time I was admitting my feeling and giving permission for my heart to enjoy the feeling and dance freely, I was still the same artist; acting as I had nothing with him. I was a great cold-hearted artist on the outside.
I waited. He stepped. He tried.
I am still here with the same feeling towards the same person.
That's what I wrote one time and I was also still the same artist.
I actually didn't understand myself that time. Was I paid for acting that character? I didn't understand me and so I kept writing the same 2013's story.
We were still in the same movie, same cycle.
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Feeling and Thought of Him
RomanceThis writing contains sun, rainbow, rain, storm, sparkles and other things since he stepped into my life, since his name failed escaping from my heart.