Something A Bit Diffrent

Part 1

Pov Katrina

I waved at the people who came to set up their booths. It was a common occurrence for me and I knew who would be here and who wouldn't. I saw that we got a new ticket person. I heard that she was sick in the head or something. "Hey, Kit-Kat. Looking at them again. What's so fun to look at them?" My brother Gabe asked. I turned around and looked at him. "Them? Seriously Gabe, just stop. Don't act like we're not like them. We are..." "Some of use." Finished of Gabe. I grabbed his face to make sure he was looking at me. "Gabe, stop saying you're not human. You have feelings and emotions just like me and those people outside." I felt Gabe holding on to tears. "They think otherwise. They are disgusted by me. I don't know why Mama Lou wanted me. I move weird and my face is disfigured." I hugged him tightly. It was always harder for him to fit in. He was burned as a child because of his own mother. She couldn't handle a human and her husband was just worthless. He forced his wife to do such a heinous crime. He didn't deserve this bullshit from others. He was the most kindness and sweetest person ever. I could feel that Gabe was done crying but I still held on since he needed comfort.

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It was time to do the show. I could feel my hands going clammy. My heart was racing like crazy.  I could laugh at myself since I loved doing this when I was a child. But everything had changed ever since I almost fell. It traumatized me to this day. Mama Lou told me to stop doing this so I wouldn't get a panic attack. I told her I just needed some time off but I was so wrong since I would feel my heart ready to jump out.  I started to fade out and my vision blurred. I couldn't handle the intense silence. I hated this part having to get ready to jump in the air and hold on the bar. I see my partner getting ready to push it to me. I felt my hands get sweaty and clammy. I only heard muffles from the people that we supposed to help me. I didn't hear a single word. I saw it was Que to go. It came towards me I grabbed it and my heart did a little flip. Then it was time for me to do actually do one. I counted to three.

ONE...

TWO...

"might not... Help her... *Sob* *Sob*... my child... fault..." 

My head was pounding and the muffle voices didn't help at all.  I tried to move my arm but it felt like I was underwater. I kept trying until I could fully move it I open up my eyes were blinded by the unforgiving sun. I felt the stares of people. It was Mama Lou, Gabe, Luna, Luke, and a doctor. The first to speak was the doctor, "Give her some medicine." He then turned to my family, "Don't worry about her. She might be in pain for a while but let her recover and tell her to take it easy." It was too much for me to handle knowing that I couldn't do my job. I wanted to speak but a cough just came out. I barely noticed the dryness of my mouth. The doctor signaled the nurse to give me water once I got it I chugged it down in one big gulp. I tried to speak again when I was interrupted.  The door of my room was opened with force. The man let the door slam into the wall making a loud *BANG*. "Is this Katrina's room? I need to talk to her for a moment." The man seemed like he was running his breaths were shallow and rapid. I wanted to know who this man was so I spoke first. "I'm her. And you are?" His eyes meet with mine and they were filled with emotions. He slowly walked up while the doctor tried to stop him. He looked at the people around the room as if they were going to tear him apart. "May I speak to her alone?" The strange man spoke. I looked at my Ma and family they looked at me. "Let him." I mouthed towards them. They told the doctor to leave they soon all left and it was just me and this man. I gestured him to come closer since I was still a bit dazed from waking up. He took the invitation and came closer.  "It's about your real mom." I felt the color drain from my face I knew my mother left me inside a trashcan but I knew there had to be more.