Rewrite The Stars

Zabdiel Rodriguez

"Thank you" I smile.

I am not a monster. It's true, my fault is I can't control my outburst and when an episode happens I can be violent.

But that's the thing. we don't know when that will happen.

There are times when I don't have an outburst.

I use to think what will my life be if I don't have this illness??

I don't know.

I hate it when people think I hurt them in purpose. Well I don't.

You don't even know how much I want to get away with this illness.

But whether you like it or not. Episodes happen.

There are people out there like me.

Who are judged because they think we're evil.

Well we're not. And trust me, we struggle to get away from this. But unfortunately there are no miracle solutions.

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We reach home and I see Jordan standing on my front porch.

We get out of the car and I walk towards Jordan and I smile at him.

"Hey" I smile.

"How are you feeling??" He asks.

"I'm fine" I sigh.

"I'm all open ears" He smile.

I sit on the stairs and he sits beside me.

"I had an outburst" I sigh.

"Believe me, I know. you should see Quintin right now" Jordan smile.

"I could have killed him you know" I sigh.

"well he kinda deserve that" He smile.

"I hurt Addison. I hurt him... I won't forgive myself anymore" Tears begin to fall from my eyes.

"don't be so harsh on yourself Bro. I'm sure Addison understands" He smile.

"No he won't. I didn't tell him that I am Mentally ill" I pick a pebble and throw it on the ground.

"Then I guess you guys should talk" Jordan sigh.

"I can't Bro. I can't face him right now. I'm too ashamed of what I did" I sigh.

"you need to make him understand bro! He's surprised yes, but that doesn't mean he'll hate you for it" Jordan smile.

"I wish he will really understand. I don't wanna lose him" I smile as I wipe my tears.

"do you want me to call him??" He asks.

"can you??" I smile.

"using your phone of course! Hahaha I don't have his number" He chuckle.

I smile as I give him my phone.

He dials Addison's number and it starts to ring.

The ring stops so Jordan starts another call.

But still. It only rings but no one is answering.

"He doesn't want to talk to me" I sigh.

"oh come on pal! Don't lose hope" Jordan smile.

Jordan dusts himself up.

"I gotta go! See you at school??" He smiles.

"sure!" I smile.