thinking in verse

lowercase

11:29 am

one time my teacher told me

that you capitalize the things that are important

like special people, places, and things

like You, like Outer Space, and like Happiness

after learning that 

the beginnings of the sentence was the first to go

what could i possibly say that would be worthwhile

and how would i know it before i even began

the passive letters bothered me

they went against everything i had thought by myself

but i was not the authority

so i gave way

and gave them all away

the letter i, the places i'd been, the days of the week

my name

so even when countless people try to tell me 

that what i've been told was wrong

that i should capitalize things 

like the letter I,

the United States,

and Saturday April 6th

it's an alien concept now 

rejected when i had been too young

rejected for too long

but i'm still young

so perhaps one day i'll be able to write my name

and feel like it belongs there 

maybe one day i'll be able to regain

the comfort in capitalization