Mini's Updates

venty stuff

sometimes, when I read my old artbooks, or look at my old videos and art, I feel a bit sad. I wish things were like they used to be, with my friends and me actually being excited to upload my art to here. I miss how my friends were always right there, how they were so close when I needed them

it was a time period where, while my art and everything was terrible, people were there. I feel.. like I'm missing something whenever I upload. It feels lonely, like I know it's not going to matter because it hasn't for a long while

a reason I didn't want to make my 6th artbook is because of that. I knew that it was happening and I really, really didn't want to make a new one. The fourth and fifth artbooks are where most of the memories are,and it feels like people just don't want to talk to me anymore

it makes me sad. Then again, I'm always sad, but.. I miss it

I would make a new type of drawing for the first time, or an animation meme or something like that. People would enjoy it, they'd actually say something, whether it be something about it they like or just a nice comment from a friend. When I'd remake something, I'd feel so nice and happy knowing how far I've came, and that my friends could see that

I don't feel like I enjoy it as much as I used to

I enjoy uploading my art here. It's something I've done for the longest time. Though, over the years, I have lost a bunch of people that were my friends, mainly because they don't use Wattpad anymore, or they don't even know I exist anymore

but no matter what, in the past, I'd still have someone there

it feels like I lost that. Like I lost a bunch of friends, like it's pointless to do this because it won't be like it used to be. I want it to be like it used to be, I want me to enjoy uploading art as much as I used to. I wish I was still capable of doing something without feeling lonely or left out

I miss the friends I made. I miss the friends I had, and that I still do have. It feels like I've grown apart from them, and it upsets me

I don't.. I don't know why I'm even doing this

it's pointless