Thoughts

today I did nothing and I felt nothing I don't know what I'm supposed to feel but I felt nothing and that scares me I just felt numb like nothing I did mattered every time I try to talk people talk over me and all I can do is smile and nod at their little stories even at home its like that I feel invisible like I'm nothing I could just disappear and it wouldn't matter I'm NOT suicidal and I don't think I'm depressed I just may be bipolar like one minute I'm happy and giggly then the next I'm quiet and shut down I don't know I just sometimes don't want to do anything but sit in my room in the dark and listen to music and others I wanna go and hang out with my friends and do something anything I just wanna be HEARD is that so much to ask for