Make it stop

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I don't know what to do anymore

I want to give up, my life is a chore

All I want is to get out of my own head

How can I do that when I can't get out of bed

I'm carrying around this weight in my chest

But I still feel hollow with every manual breath

I don't know how I could possibly explain

That the words "I'm tired" hold a different pain

My isolation seems like the only option

When broken hearts lead into caution

How have I made it through all this abuse

Yet hurt myself and tie the noose

I want to close my eyes and take a break

And I hope to god that I'd never wake

I can't be the only one who feels this way

It only gets worse with every passing day

I feel like I've gone completely insane

Trapped in a prison inside my own brain

Though I know I'm bound to I feel the sting

I still get caught up in a meaningless fling

I wish someone would see my torment

Or maybe even think I'm important

But the price I pay hiding behind a smile

Is a head full of thoughts all nasty and vile

Every time I reach out for assistance

I'm met with the same ignorant resistance

All I want is for someone to care

To help when the pain is too much to bear

I don't know why my cries are always silent

When on the inside it's nothing but violent

What do I have to do to make it stop

When I'm so anxious my stomach drops

I can feel it radiate through my skin

And I know this isn't a fight I will win

I don't know how much more I can take

I'm worried that soon my strength will break

I don't even know how I'm still here

While every waking second is riddled with fear

I swear I think I'm going crazy

How do I describe what I feel daily

If only this sickness were something visible

Maybe my head wouldn't be so cynical

I just want someone to hold my hand

To stick by me when things go unplanned

How could I seem so disposable

Maybe because I'm over emotional

No one wants to put up with my feelings

Back and forth, they're always reeling

I want someone to know me for me

To help heal this wound that has no bleed

Why am I simply too much to handle

Every relationship is a failing gamble

By now I should know from the start

To take great care when giving my heart

I never learn and I feel so dumb

Every time someone leaves me numb

I just want to get out of this mess

But I've never really had any success

How do I get someone to listen

Before fake guns fire real ammunition

-K.W.B.

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