It All Started With a Diary

retaliation|part 1

We both nodded at her appreciatively. "Come on!" Maggie shouted as quietly as possible, tightening her hold on me. If it wasn't there, I would have surely been caught.

We made our way out of the building, before we realized that we would have to pass the patrol car to leave. The car lights illuminated so closely, it was obvious.

"I think I know a way," Maggie whispered before releasing me to lead.

It was dark out. To my frustration, I could barely see which direction she went in. I felt the sweat on my neck freeze into icy waters as I realized that I was alone now.

I turned frantically at the sound of footsteps. I squinted my eyes in the direction I thought it was coming from, but my vision still refrained. I had left the house without my glasses.

"Oh my god," I whispered fearfully. This was how I went out.

I was beyond frantic. I would be in trouble with the school, if not the law for breaking into school property. If they found out about what we did to Natasha and Amber, that would only be more trouble. I was bound to get caught.

"What the fuck are you doing here?"

I turned around so quickly, it almost hurt. My insides grew into a distant memory of his voice, at the sight of brown eyes, at sight of him.

I stepped away from Kade, even though he hadn't taken one step closer. "W-what?"

You would expect his light brown eyes to lead you towards heat, though they did the exact opposite. "I know you heard me."

"What are you doing here?" I retorted as I gathered all of my courage.

"Not that it's any of your business," he answered. "But I had some business to attend to."

"At school?"

Kade shrugged, taking a closer step to me. "Money is money, I don't give a fuck where it comes from." Before I could even hum, he added, "I don't like your friends."

I had to take a minute to breathe here. Just by seeing him, it brought back memories. Memories that I so dearly wished to conceal, along with my heart and tender emotions toward him.

Finally, I managed to suppress my shock enough to say, "Why would I care what you liked?" I questioned, my attitude very deceiving.

His brow cocked as he crossed his arms. "Cocky, sweetheart?"

I wasn't confident. No, I was far from it. But, I would stand up for myself. After seventeen years, I finally knew: fake it until you didn't have to any longer.

My breathing pattern grew impatient as he stepped closer. I refused to let him win this, I refused it.

He towered over me, as did his cocky expression. "Don't forget I still have your secrets, sweetheart," he paused, his finger pointing to my heart. "And, let's not forget that, too."

My heartbeat reacted so quickly, I nearly jolted with it. It was far from normal at the point. I felt like I'd been under water for the longest amount of time possible, only to come up breathless.

Before I could react, he removed himself. I grew cold once again at the sudden lack of warmth his body provided. "Now, go the hell home before you're caught," his words were cautious, but the way he said them, were not.

That was when I snapped.

I didn't think before my hands were against his chest. I couldn't comprehend how I gained so much strength, but I managed to knock him back a couple of steps before he could recover.

I settled a strong glare over him. "No, you get the hell away from me! You came to me, I never came to you! And, you know what? Go ahead, tell my secrets to the entire school! I don't care anymore." I pointed to the same spot on my heart that his finger aimed at. "And, about this? It'll never belong to a heartless asshole like you." Even saying the words felt like damning myself. I saw him flinch. "Put it aside, because I'll stand for myself when I say, you will not treat me like this any longer, Kade." I didn't realize it until now that the rain was coming down as hard as my heart was planning to fall.

I threw my arms down by my sides as the rain began to drop in buckets. "I'll stand for my heart, and myself when I say...fuck you."

His reaction read it all. He didn't react with anger, or a witty comeback. Instead, he said nothing. His black hair was now plastered to his forehead, due to the rain. His brown eyes could be seen through the dark night, the twinkle in the light orb a sign of confusion.

I shook my head as the hurt set in, once again. The scars grew painful, the wounds reopened. The pain grew back. The emotions I tried so hard to obliterate from existence...they were back.

Without another exchange, I turned around in a quick motion. I ran to another direction, in search of anything.

Just as I rounded the corner, I bumped chests right into Maggie. "There you are! Raven led security away, and now he's on the other side of the building, away from us. Raven went ahead and pulled closer for a getaway. Now, come on, we need to get out of here!" She pulled me along before I could have a reaction.

I couldn't help, but turn around once we were closer to the car outside. My head was pounding, as was my heart.

As Maggie said, Raven was closer. We all got in, drenched and shaken by the rain and the adrenaline of the night.

Maggie turned to Raven, eyes wide. "Drift us the hell out of here, woman!"

Raven did just that, the wheels bouncing under the gravel as she tore into the gas. "We didn't get caught!" she shouted in joy. "Holy shit!"

Maggie swept a hand through drenched locks, grinning. "I told you guys we'd make it out alive."

That was what she thought. My heart was deep in the grave, and covered with the reminder of Kade.

I left Kade there in the dark. Even if I denied it, I could sadly say that I left my heart behind with him.