Irreplaceable You

Chapter 12: Mourn

I'll try to find myself. I'll get to know myself. I'll work on myself. I'll confront myself to be the best version of myself. I'll do what I love. I'll find my purpose. I'll build on my career. I'll be stable. I'll have a house. I'll have a car. It won't be the best, but yeah, God knows I'll try to have the best that I can. I'll perfect the 'I' before it becomes 'Us'.
I hope you can wait. I'm coming...As fast as I can.

I'm coming back for you because I love you. I love you with all my heart and if the time comes that you can't wait for me. As long as you're happy with whoever you are with. Always remember that I'm always here waiting for you.

I love you Jhoana Louisse, I hope I can still meet you at the end of the aisle.

I love you Love,  always has and always will. Take care of yourself please! I miss you already! I love you.

Love,
Bea

After I read it. I just cried and cried. I miss my Beatriz. Ang sakit ng puso ko, hindi ko kayang tanggapin na wala ka na talaga. You said you would wait for me.. I'll be waiting for you at the end of the aisle love pero bakit ganito? I'm already alone here. Hindi mo naman nilakasan para lumaban para intayin ako sa aisle.

Love why did you have to leave me? Ayoko nang mabuhay sa mundong to na wala ka.
I can't live my life anymore. I can't go on. I can't move on. I can't without you. Without you I'm nobody. I'm just a common girl, without a life.

Umiyak lang ako nang umiyak hanggang sa makatulog na lang.

~~~~~

ELLA POV

Nasa dorm ako ngayon, tinatamad kasi akong lumabas kaya nagpaiwan na lang ako kana Alyssa. Mas gusto ko na lang matulog at kumain dito.

*knock *knock *knock

"Pasok, bukas yan... basta may dala kang pagkain."  Ella

"Ate Ella talaga! Here oh! Kain ka, di ka daw sumama kana Ate Ly eh." Bea

"Mapaglilingkod ko sayo bata? Bigatin ng dala mo ah! Laki needs mo sakin?" Ella

"Haha hindi naman! Dinalhan lang kita ng food, ayoko lang nagugutom ka." Bea

"Wushu Bea! What do you need?" Ella

"This..." Bea

Bea showed me a three envelop.

"Ano 'to? Love letter mo sakin? Ako ba talaga ang mahal mo Beatriz? Umamin ka! Boto ako para sayo kay Jhoana tas mangangaliwa ka pa gamit ako!" Ella

"Patawa ka talaga ate ells! Puro ka kalokohan!" Bea

"Eh ano ba kasi to? Kung sinasabi mo na?" Ella

"This one, give this to Jho...whenever you feel like this week okay? Pero wag agad, agad. While this other one, kapag nagstart na UAAP Season 80 Volleyball, okay?" Bea

"Anong laman nito? Pwede ko buksan?" Ella

"Bawal! For Jho's eyes only!" Bea

"Wowha! May porn to no?" Ella

"Baliw! Wala!" Sige aalis na ako Ate Ells! Enjoy mo yang meal mo." Bea

"Eh wait! Wait ano tong isang white envelop?" Ella

"Bigay mo sa kanya when she needs me the most. Thank you Ate Ells! I owe you big time. Bye!" Bea

At lumabas na siya ng pinto ng kwarto.