I'm scared for tomorrow as school starts again for a third term and AH, I JUST HOPE THAT THERE'S NO DRAMA AND SHIT BETWEEN CERTAIN PEOPLE!
I'M SCARED IF SHITS GONNA HAPPEN DURNING TUTOR AS APPARENTLY WE HAVE TO GO THERE STRAIGHT AWAY WHEN WE GET TO SCHOOL. I'M SCARED IF I MAGICALLY MOVED DOWN/UP A SET IN ANY OF MY LESSONS WHICH I HOPE DOESNT HAPPEN BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH MY ENGLISH TEACHER SAID HE'LL MOVE ME AND TWO OTHERS UP, I DONT WANT TO LEAVE THAT CLASS BECAUSE I KNOW/AM CLOSE WITH EVERYONE THERE. I'M SCARED IF MY STUPID ANXIETY IS GOING TO PLAY UP RIGHT WHEN I WAKE UP AND THEN SHIT HAPPENS AND BLAH BLAH. I'M SCARED IF THIS SWEET PERSON I LOVE AND I START GOING OUT AND THEN A STUPID (well some stupid bitches) BITCH FINDS OUT AND JUST TALKS ABOUT THROUGH TUTOR AND THE END OF THE DAY LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I'M SCARED TO COME OUT TO MY PARENTS ABOUT ME POSSIBLY NOT HEING STRAIGHT BUT AS MY WHOLE FAMILY (maybe not my sister???) IS SO HOMOPHOBIC I JUST DON'T KNOW IF THEY'LL ACCEPT ME STILL OR JUST THINK THAT I'M JOKING.
anyway, how's peoples year so far? I've been listening to music everyday so far and currently Tell Me What To Do by SHINee is playing AND I AM TOTALLY NOT CRYING RIGHT NOW! (i miss you jonghyun <3)
