How are you supposed to see good around the corner when all you feel is pain and fear?
I hate change. Because with change comes different living.
Change can either bring happiness or despair and all I can pray for is that it's happiness and contentment.
That's all I wish for in life is to be happy but with this new year beginning, I'm terrified.
I'm so scared.
This last year I lost everything.Because people decided I wasn't good enough for them.
I have so much hate and hurt towards those two fake girls that I hate to go to school and see their faces, every day.
Just fake it till you make it they say.
But when will I make it?
Because it feels like all I'm doing is faking being happy and faking kindness to those who have ripped out my heart over and over again.
I can't forgive them.
I believe forgiving those who have broken my soul is the hardest thing I have ever attempted to do.
All I do is fake it.
I want to be true, but I can't be happy so I pretend to be happy.
I can't be kind to those who have hurt me so I pretend to be kind.I need help forgiving these people. Forgiveness and trust are the hardest things for me to give.
God help me. I need help.
I need help being happy.
I need help going through every day.
I need help with my mental Illnesses.
I need help being a good friend and a good girlfriend.
I need help being kind.
I need help forgiving people that have wronged me.
I need help trusting people.Just help me God, I am afraid.
God take my fear.
Because that is where I live.
All I do is worry and become afraid.
It feels like fear has become me,
I feel as if it is not something I feel but something that has become a part of me.
And I need it to be executed,
Because I can't keep living like this.All I see is darkness.
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PoetryPoetry for those few souls that long for realness our world lacks Written not for reads but a place where I can write my feelings so I can attempt understand them myself. ••• To the boy that changed me. Heartbreak or not, you will live on in my burn...