The Bodyguard (A Monsta X Fanfiction)

Chapter Forty Eight: Coming Clean

'Let them down easy. Let them down easy.' I kept telling myself.

"Jiyeon!" Changkyun cheered behind me, placing his hands on my shoulders in an attempt to surprise me.

I didn't startle, because I was already on edge.

I was pretty nervous, so I forced a smile.

"Please, sit." I said, motioning across from me.

"So what do you want to do?" Changkyun asked, smiling, "We can go to a landmarks... maybe a club..." He reached across the table to touch my hand.

It was not long before someone else showed up.

"Jiyeon? Changkyun?"

I turned around to see Shownu approaching us slowly. He looked disappointed that it wasn't just the two of us.

"What's he doing here?" Changkyun asked, pointing to Shownu.

"Listen... guys..." I started to say, smoothing my hair down nervously.

"What are all of you doing here?" Hyungwon appeared next, glancing between Shownu and Changkyun. He turned his attention to me, "Jiyeon, what's going on?"

"I-"

"Hey! What's going on here." Wonho pouted, joining the group, "I thought it was just supposed to be you and me." He glanced at me.

"That's what she told me too!" Changkyun added, "Jiyeon, what's going on?"

I sighed, staring down at my lap.

"Please, sit down." I muttered, motioning to the three remaining seats.

The boys exchanged looks before taking the seats across from me.

My eyes roamed the four of them, noticing that they all dressed for what they thought was a nice alone with me. Changkyun wore a Bathing Apes shirt. Hyungwon was dressed more fashionably in a flowy shirt and ripped jeans. Wonho had on a cool shirt cut-out shirt that showed off his arms muscles. And Shownu wore a simple button-down with shorts.

I was certain that after this conversation, the four of them would hate me.

"We can't keep going on like this." I said softly, looking each of them in the eye for a moment.

They looked hurt by my words.

"What do you mean?" Wonho croaked.

"We can't all keep meeting up alone like this," I said.

"So you don't like me?" Changkyun asked, brows furrowed, "I thought you liked me too..."

"It's not that I don't like you." I replied quickly.

"What about me?" Hyungwon asked.

"It's not that I don't like you either."

"So then who do you like?" Wonho spoke up.

The question hung in the air and we all fell silent. The four of them waited, staring at me expectantly.

I felt the weight of the world on me, unsure of what to say.

'Who do I like?'

I averted my gaze to my hands again.

"You can't ask her that! You're putting her on the spot!" Changkyun argued, smacking Wonho's bicep.

"Well I just want to know." Wonho shrugged.

"I want to know too..." Shownu muttered, finally speaking up. But he didn't draw anyone's attention. Changkyun and Hyungwon were too focused on Wonho, who was far more outspoken.

"No, you just want to hear Jiyeon turn the three of us down, don't you?" Hyungwon glared.

"What? No." Wonho replied, brows furrowed.

"He thinks he's better than us, though, doesn't he?" Changkyun muttered, arms crossed.

"I do not!" Wonho yelled, standing up from his seat, "I just want to know the truth!"

"She doesn't have to tell us if she doesn't want to." Shownu finally spoke loud enough for everyone to hear.

Changkyun and Hyungwon quickly turned their attention to Shownu. Their eyes seemed to shoot lasers, and they looked like they were itching to fight.

"And you!" Hyungwon growled at Shownu, "When the hell did you start liking Jiyeon?"

"Well..." Shownu's voice trailed off.

"Don't we deserve to know things about you?" Changkyun asked. "Why wouldn't you well us?"

"Yeah! Why would you keep that from us?" Wonho added, "Aren't we a group? Aren't we brothers?"

"Of course we are! But I didn't want to make a big deal about it." Shownu replied.

"No, you were just trying to steal her out from under us." Changkyun muttered. "Don't act so innocent."

"Guys." I said calmly, trying to cut in before the argument got too heated.

"What?" The three said in unison, turning their glares at me.

This was going too far. I thought the four of them would get angry at me, but now they were turning against each other.

"I... I don't want you to fight." I muttered.

"She's right." Hyungwon nodded, "We shouldn't fight."

I let out a sigh, relieved we might finally be able to have a civil conversation.

"Let's not talk nonsense anymore. We should discuss facts." Hyungwon added, "I've kissed her twice! That's more than all of you."

"What does that matter?" Wonho yelled, "It's about the feeling."

"I think we're glossing over the fact that he had time to kiss her twice, when the hell did that happen?" Changkyun asked, but he was quickly ignored.

"She must have more feelings for me since we kissed so much." Hyungwon flipped his hair. "Don't be jealous." 

"Come on guys." I muttered.

"Forget this, I'm going to my room." Shownu growled, standing up.

"Giving up again?" Changkyun scoffed, "He can't commit to anything."

Shownu froze, he was shocked Changkyun was saying something so rude.

The table fell silent, the boys fuming without a word.

"Forget this." Wonho muttered, standing up as well. "All of you stay away from me for the rest of the night."

"Fine, you all stay away from me too." Hyungwon rolled his eyes.

Silently, the four of them stood and walked away, leaning me alone at the table. They walked side by side, but they didn't glance at or speak to each other.

They weren't going to speak to each other for the night. But what if they didn't speak to each other for a day...? Or a week?

What if I've just ruined their whole friendship?

'What have I done?'

I felt like I was slowly causing the boys to drift away from each other, and I hated myself for it. I didn't want to be the reason that Monsta X fought and broke up, especially not during their world tour.

If I had any self respect, I would pack up and leave right now. But I had a job to finish, and I wasn't going to leave them unprotected in the US.

'Just a year.' I thought.

At the end of the year, I would go back to the FBI. And the problem that is me would be gone.