"Okay... Go get dressed, I left your clothes out for you." Tia says, taking the bowl from his hands and kissing his cheek.
"Yes ma'am." He answers, scampering off.
I waited until he was upstairs to say something. "Tia we talked about this already." I say sternly.
"Is there's a reason you ran down here like you were looking for something." She asking, abruptly changing the subject.
"What are you talking about Tiana." I really don't want to talk about this right now.
"You looked relieved when you saw me and Aiden." She clarifies, though she really didn't need to because I was guilty of what she's accusing me of.
"I just had a nightmare is all." I say with a shrug.
She looks at me through narrowed eyes before turning around. She began wiping down the counter, to make it look like she was busy, but I could the sniffles that she was trying to hide. Feeling like an asshole I go to comfort her but her words make me pause.
"If you don't trust me Jason then we shouldn't get married." She says in a hurt tone.
"Baby I do trust you." I say honestly, moving so that I could wrap her up in my arms. She moved lay her hands on my arms and then leaned her head back on my chest.
I've already foregiven her. If I'm being honest with myself I've just been taking my insecurities out on her and that wasn't right of me. But I couldn't help it. Tia was perfect in every way. If she wanted she could leave and find some one way better than me. Someone who wasn't a killer. Someone who had a normal job and didn't have to have security on her and Aiden every time I was away. She wouldn't have to look over her shoulder all the time because someone was pissed at me.
She could have a normal life with some regular guy that would love her and Aiden unconditionally. It wouldn't matter that he would more than likely have less money than me, because I know my Bambina doesn't care about that kinda shit. She could leave me if she saw the monster that I really am. No she would. And it would be completely justified.
"You don't act like you trust me Jay." She says tearfully, effectively breaking my heart.
"I'm sorry Bambina." I whisper softly.
"Don't say sorry of you're going to keep doing the same things over. Because then you don't really mean it and it's a waste of breathe, time and energy." She says moving to break free of my embrace
"Can't you just except my apology without catching an attitude." I say letting her go and throwing up my hands.
"Fuck You Jason." She spat. "Don't get mad at me when I say the truth. You do this shit all the time. You apologize and say you've forgiven me, but you hen you go right back to acting the same controlling way that you always act."
"I'm not controlling." I defend weakly.
"Like hell you're not." She laughs humorous lessly. "You come to Atlanta find out I've kept Aiden from you, so you tell me to marry you or you'll take him away. Then when I argue with you about you go and choke me out. Then we get to New York and I'm thinking everything is good when you buy a shop. I'm thinking your coming around until you tell me that I can't open it until Aiden starts school. I agree because I choose my battles.
But then you get upset about me not wanting to get married in November and then when I change the date you find something else to pick at which is the damn preacher that I've wanted since I was eight and you fucking know it.
You have been keeping me in this tight leash since you've come back in to my life and it's choking me to death. At this point I don't even care about that stupid fucking shop. You can have it. But I will never let you take my child away from me. Even if I have to be in debt till the day I die I will never let you take him from."
Chapter 31
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