It All Started With a Diary

maybe|part 2

I think I kind of like this guy.

I was safe in my spot next to him. Though, he ruined it when he opened his mouth again.

"So, uh...wanna dance?" he asked me, motioning toward the music. "I mean we've been standing here for a while."

I shook my head, scooting over as someone went for a cup. "I don't dance."

"Of course you do. C'mon," he pushed. "I'll show you."

I nibbled on my check as he went to grab my hand. "Oh, no really." With an awkward chuckle, I pushed his hand off of mine.

"Look, it'll be fun," he continued to urge.

Can this man not take a hint?

We continued to argue back and forth about whether or not I could dance, before I finally grew agitated. Why in the hell was I arguing about this?

I shoved his hand away, more roughly this time, showcasing my frustration. But, I pushed him too hard. His back bumped into the table, causing all of the contents to fall over.

I froze as everyone's attention landed on us. I couldn't hide like I usually could; I could only sit here and enjoy my embarrassment. The music seemed to be even lower as everyone guided their eyes toward me and the accident I caused.

Angelo was just as shocked, his mouth agape. He reached out again, but I yanked my arm back instinctively.

"I-I need some air," I choked out, clutching the edges of my shirt in hand as I hurriedly left the room.

I felt dizzy in the crowded room, the situation seeping in. Hardly, I shoved through the back door. It was sucking that the backyard was vacant, but it was definitely the only space that was.

My hands were clammy with sweat as I sat in one of the scattered chairs. I glanced around, checking once again for any signs of humanity. The small forest that sat in front of me stood populated with trees, and I struggled to see through them. I was alone with my thoughts now.

What am I doing?

Fuck. I didn't belong here. I knew I was never meant to be in a place like this, but I was still here. For some damn reason that I couldn't figure out, I was still here.

I shook my head, feeling that familiar burning sensation in my eyes. I rubbed my temples as a headache began to set in.

I just wanted to go home. To go read a book peacefully in my room. Alone.

I shouldn't have came here; maybe I was better off alone. Starting from Kade and I never getting along, and ending at Raven beginning to replace me with Maggie, they were all signs that I was only meant to be by myself.

I wiped at my eyes as I leaned back into the chair. My hands hurriedly went to unzip the boots that had been causing my ankles to ache all night, tossing them across the patio.

Crack.

My head snapped up instantly.

I froze eternally, my gaze switching directions as I searched for the source of the sound. I swallowed my fear, slowly standing as I reached for my boots.