It All Started With a Diary

maybe|part 2

Raven's hair hung in a high ponytail, and she wore a black romper that hugged her curves perfectly. She had fishnets on underneath, as well as the same pair of black, thigh-high, heeled boots. Her makeup was dark, and her skin was marked with fake blood as well.

Maggie decided on a spaghetti strap, black top. It showed a small bit of her stomach, but she had pulled it down to cover it entirely. I had seen scars in that spot, but I didn't comment on it, because I didn't want to make her uncomfortable. She added a black leather skirt, one that was tight at the beginning of her thighs, which shaped her figure seductively. To finish, she added ankle-cut black boots and a small cat ear hair decoration. Raven planned for us all to slightly match, and she had done that perfectly.

I was the last to step out of the car, following behind the three of them. As we stepped onto the lawn of the two story home, I stopped at the grab of my hand.

Raven sighed, her brows drawing in. "Kimberly, I'm really sorry. I was selfish and I should have thought about your feelings. Levi said that Kade probably won't be here, but regardless, it was wrong of me." Her hands grasped both of mine, fully turning me to her.

I sighed, nodding. "It's okay, Raven. I'm still freaking the hell out, but I accept your apology."

Her chest fell with relief before she leaned forward, embracing me in a hug. "I'm sorry, I feel like shit now." Her apology held sincere regret, and I took it to heart.

I knew that I would have to confront Kade another time, and I guess that date was here. Even though this wasn't how I wanted it to go, I knew I'd have to face him one day. Though, my heart seemed as if it were barely functioning under this pressure, I still smiled at Raven's regretful figure.

"It's okay, I'm going to be okay. This is about you and Levi, not me and my shit," I consoled, offering a smile. "Just enjoy yourself, and don't worry about me, okay?"

I still didn't feel quite right as I thought of the last exchange between Kade and I. I was never one to hold onto my anger, but I couldn't help it this time. After months of his torments, I couldn't just forget it. I knew that my heart was telling me to go against my mind, but every time we were close to one another, something tore us apart again. That was a sign, it had to be. I understood that Kade had shown me a different side of him, but I still held fear that it was only a game.

Her arms squeezed me once more, before letting go. "Damn it, you're going to make me mess up my mascara." With a strained chuckle, she swiped at her eyes.

I laughed, smiling as she attempted to fix it. "Let's just go and get this over with." She nodded, grabbing my hand as we walked to Maggie and Jax.

"About time," Maggie said, linking arms with me.

Raven nodded at the people who called to her; I noticed some of their eyes lingering on us. "Not to brag, but we look hot," Jax said. I glanced around carefully, catching eyes with some of the wandering ones. 

Immediately, I was hit with the stench of alcohol and music, all shoved into one big bunch of disaster. As soon as we walked into the house, we came across the sweaty bodies leaned against one of the walls.

Leftover bottles and cans of alcohol scattered the floor. Even as I tried to block out the blares of the music, I still couldn't keep my eyes from hovering over the interior. In every corner, against every wall, someone was either making out, talking, or stumbling around to find their hookup for the night.