Hidden love [[kth_jjk]]

||3|| Ignoring

He looks so cute with his soft hair...

Then the girls surround me really fast, asking me how I am and how my holidays were. I just walk past them and honestly I have no idea where my sudden confidence is coming from, but I walk straight forward to Tae's seat and sit down next to him. 

I bounce my leg up and down, knowing damn well I'm as nervous as I've never been before. He doesn't look up from his notes..

Tae is so different from everyone else. In school either people love or hate me. And either they're my close best friends or my enemies but Tae is... just Tae.

I mean he has to know who I am since everyone knows me, but he doesn't pay attention at all when I'm around. I sometimes believe he ignores me. 

When we accidentally meet eyes he looks away. It's like I'm not there. Sometimes when we're at the same place he just leaves. Does he not like me?

Maybe he thinks I'm some cliche bad guy and doesn't want to get involved with me. But I don't even go to a lot of parties, if I do then only because people keep asking me.

But most importantly, I haven't had a real relationship before. I was also confused for a long time until I figured out that I'm bisexual. Which for sure no one knows except me. I only once had a girlfriend for three weeks, thinking she was nice..

But it seems like the person I have feelings for doesn't even want to be near me.

Taehyung's POV

What is happening?? He is sitting right beside me..

Okay... I need to stay calm..

I mean I've always been good at acting, which has been very helpful. 

I bet he thinks I hate him... I don't actually want him to think that, but if I want to hide my feelings, there's really no other way for me. If I wouldn't act around him, he would know that I like him.

I don't want to end up as the gay guy having a crush on the popular guy. So I pull up an act every day and fanboy over him only in my head..

The problem is as soon as he is too close..my acting kind of... cracks.

I don't have so much control anymore and that's why I would always get away from him but.. this is the first time this happens in class and I have no chance to get away, even if I want to...

Oh please don't embarrass yourself ..

"You're Tae right?" I hear his mesmerizing voice... it's so beautiful and clear close up.

"Y-yeah" I stutter.. I knew that would happen.

"Ehm.. we never talked before so I uh.. thought maybe we should get to know each other"

I see from the corner of my eye that he's looking at me, but if I'd return it I literally would faint. So I just look down on my lap..

"Uh, sure" I say simply. I know that for him it seems like I don't care but honestly.. I'm sweating, my hands are shaking, my heart might jump out of my chest and my breathing is so irregular... he's making me so nervous...

"I think you might know who I am, but I still want to introduce myself properly. I'm Jeon Jungkook, I'm nineteen. What about you?"

"I'm K-kim Taehyung, seventeen.." I try to get out normal sentences but that's the best I can do.