I feel broken. I feel stupid for loving you. It's weird bc I still feel stupid I feel like you played me in a way but did you? I let myself fall harder and faster than I ever should. And I have no idea why this pain inside still keeps me up at night, I feel like I'm dying. I'm trying to distract from the fact that your face haunts my dreams and I'm still a phene for the way things were and were suppose to be. Even tho I knew I was falling to fast too hard oh no plz dont go love me love me why does it seem like I'm still unclean even tho you've been gone for what seems to long and I'm still hurting. But wait. Why do you seem ok? Even tho you said you loved me why are you laughing what secret are you hiding what darkness stirs inside you? Is there any darkness? Or did I just fall into the trap that you set and even tho you let me go why am I still in distress? Oh if their is a God out there why did he put me in such a mess? Why am I still like this? People say it was a life lesson, if that's true I get it I get I promise I wont make that mistake again. Never fall in love with a pretty boy with blue eyes and blonde hair. Bc those eyes are cold and represent the frozen heart they hold as they collect the warm hearts of others trying to unfreeze theirs but it never works. The ice of their heart is thick and you will never puncture it, only scratch the surface. I have moved on now I deserve it I deserve it. Give to me what I have worked so hard for? The hole inside me is the place where my heart is suppose to be give it back to me.
