Ever After (X Reader)

First Days Of Nothingness

(Y/n) watched the play of emotions dance across her face confused. "Alex, what are you talking about?"

"I had to kill Kara's Aunt, if I didn't she would have killed J'onn, but it didn't mean I didn't feel guilty and I was so afraid that Kara would hate me, I was afraid of losing her." Alex's voice cracked for a time where fear had been her best friend.

(Y/n) leaned forward slightly lifting Alex's chin up with her fingers. "You'll never lose Kara, you are the most important person in the world to her, just like she is for you."

"No, I.." Alex stuttered.

(Y/n) shook her head interrupting her mid-speech. "Alex, come on she is your sister, not by blood maybe but that makes no difference my mother continues to prove that, she is the most important person in your life, it's one of the reasons I love you so much, plus it's really cool that our daughters will get to see how close their mother and Aunt are and I hope they will be like that too, the world is so cold and hard, they will need each other." (Y/n) smiled encouragingly. "I'm not so insecure that I need to be your everything Alex, I don't want all of your time and emotions, I want you, yes, but I want you which means I want the you who is a way too overprotective big sister and in case you haven't noticed I love Kara too, it's really hard to hate her actually, she does this puppy dog eye thing and I find myself having to make her potstickers or pizza whatever the hell she loves on that day just to make up for being mean."

Alex laughed, "I really lucked out with you."

"Not really I have my own slightly less clueless Kara, she's called Lena Luthor." (Y/n) chuckled trailing her fingers across the sculpted plains of Alex's cheeks. "Do you know what I would like to do?"

"No," Alex whispered her voice hoarse, the motion of (Y/n)'s movements were causing pleasant tingles to travel through her body, it was nice.

"I would like to have a little dinner party, I want to try to feel like me again."

"You are going to invite Sara aren't you?" Alex said knowingly the answer already.

"Yes, and Sam, Lena, and Kara it will be nice."

Alex pursed her lips. "Do you think that maybe it's a little bit too soon for this, give it a few weeks."

"Alex the reason you won't start planning our wedding is because it will be too stressful for me, I'm not a paper doll I won't break, I want to be around the people I love and I want to plan for the day that I get to marry a woman I love so much I can't even explain it in words, these things make me happy." (Y/n) said a small plea in her voice as she looked down into Alex's eyes.

Brown eyes turned away, she was afraid of giving her too much just in case she had another attack and she was back there again, she didn't want to be the reason she was hurt, but she also didn't want to stifle her, that could do the same thing. "Okay, but nothing heavy, okay, so if we have a dinner party you do not make the food or at least not stress over it all, it's take away and as for the wedding as much as I hate it I still think we should postpone it."

(Y/n) gasped. "No, Alex please I don't want that, I want to marry you I don't want to wait."

Alex couldn't deny that she felt relieved about that, but she was being selfish, yet (Y/n) sounded so pained. "Okay, but let's not go crazy okay, because all I need is you and the people we care about us."

(Y/n) smiled happily placing an excited kiss to Alex's forehead. "That means your Mom too right?"

Alex sighed. "If she ever decides to apologize."

"She is trying you won't take her calls!" The (e/c) eyed woman shrieked.

"She should try harder."

"The next time she calls your phone I'm going to answer it." (Y/m) said smugly, she had the worst mother in the history of mothers, Freud would have had a field day with her, there was no way she was going to let Alex and Eliza continue on this battle, it was easy to go so long without a word that it becomes normal and so much time passes that no one does anything and eventually it becomes too late, she loved Alex too much to allow that to happen and thought far too much of Eliza.

"Don't forget that the psychiatrist is coming this afternoon," Alex said changing the subject rising to her feet.

(Y/n) sunk back into her chair. "Oh yes how could I forget, Dr. Dick, what kind of name is that anyway how am I supposed to have a serious conversation with someone called Dr. Dick?"

Alex laughed. "Maybe stop thinking like a ten-year-old boy."

"Seriously and he has a big ass mustache just sat on top of his mouth, it's like a crazy wig for his face." (Y/n) stressed. "Why couldn't it have been a normal Dr. Smith or Dr. Johnson and they have no hilarious facial features."

From her place, by the door, Alex waited for her sarcastic tirade to end, "Have fun baby, don't forget to message me." Blowing her a kiss she slipped out the door closing it behind her.

(Y/n) sighed her eyes looking around the already quiet apartment, the one time in her life she was happy not to live in a big house, it was hours before Alex would be home, Kara was also busy at the DEO and Lena had meetings all day, her father was at work. "Well, Bear it's just you and me until the wonderful Dr. Dick arrives."

Bear tiled his head sideways his black stone like eyes shining with what she could have sworn was a smile, understanding overwhelming him.

"See you know."