Behind The Pretty Smile

Hello there, readers, it's been awhile,
Since my last post, and my last smile,
It's incredibly sadistic how those who you once adored can turn out so vile.

The love that I once gave,
I wish I could go back and save,
Before I handed it to the wrong people,
And left myself without any, broken and feeble.

The innocence I once held,
I wish I was still holding,
Instead like rocks they fell,
and my whole world began unfolding.

I wish so badly for the truth to have stayed hidden,
But to his lips it came unbidden,
Pulling on a string that unraveled my world,
Collapsing the life of an average girl.

Now depression has taken hold,
And it wraps around me like a snake,
It whispers to me, "why not just fold?"
"You will be at peace, if your life you let me take."

And I want to give in more than I want to fight,
This life that I live it's full of sadness and fright,
The only time I feel okay,
Is when I'm away.
So why not just leave for good?

And yet I don't, but perhaps I should,
I wonder though, if I even could.
Would it be with a rope, a gun, or a razor?
Wouldn't I be doing everybody else a favor?

At these thoughts I shudder,
For why must a child have these wonders?

They circle in my head, grating on my nerves like nails on a file,
It's scary, believe me I know,
But this is what's Behind The Pretty Smile.

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This is the final chapter of Behind The Pretty Smile. I will be creating another poetry book, but felt this one had enough emotion packed into it as is. Be sure to check out the next one once it comes out, Inside The Pretty Smile. Thank you all for reading my story, please don't hesitate to vote or comment if you enjoyed it. And if any of you suffer from depression or anxeity, message me. I have a great shoulder to cry on ;)

Bye ✌ For now...